Today was my Due Date

[marcelsmum]

Today was my due date..

I should be either
in hospital screaming abuse at DP,
Looking down in amazement at my newborn
Or Sitting at home with very swollen ankles and a very swollen tum waiting very impatiently.

But instead I am
at work... not being able to concentrate cause I am thinking about what should be.

Stressing every month for 2 weeks up to ovulation, Baby Dancing for 10 days straight, then exhaustedly stressing again for another 2 weeks... leading up to nothing but dissapointment.

- Am I destined to be a mum again,,,,

When I was younger I always thought that it would never happen....(not through lack of want I just had a feeling that I was going to have troubles) but then miracle of miracles my son came along, but that was 8 long years ago.
I have stopped wishing for a daughter to play with, now I just want a baby- any sex, a happy baby is all I want..... I do not even care about disabilities, I can handle it all as long as my bub is happy.

*** Please Please Please let it happen again******

I need to think positive- It will happen again, I am generally the most optimistic person around.... think positive thoughts.
But I just can't get the sadness and thoughts that I am destined never to have another pregnancy:gloomy: .
It can only get better than this.

[Foxy]

:hugs: I hope things get better for you very soon. :hugs:

[RoarsomeMum]

:hugs: :hugs: :hugs: :hugs: Marcels Mum. My heart is breaking thinking about what your going through.

[I am Sam]

stay strong marclesmum :hugs:

[damien's mum]

Thinking of you... Sending lots of.. :hugs: :hugs: :hugs: :hugs:

[BubbaNoogie]

:hugs: :hugs: I am so sorry.....All the best, I hope things work out for you really soon.:hugs: :hugs:

[mumofcaleb]

Thinking of you :hugs: :hugs: :hugs: :crying:

[Hokey Pokey]

:hugs: :crying:

[ButterflyMama]

It's a tough journey to go on but you will get there. I'm thinking of you.

[mykidzmylife]

Sorry to hear this Marcelsmum.

I hope things work out for you.I am dreading the day my 'due' date comes around.Although my m/c was recent,it is something i think about.

Take care,
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX
Jody

[nut]

:hugs: I'm so sorry for your loss.

It will happen again- you will hold a newborn and love it to bits.

Best of luck while you wait.:)

[Towie]

Dear Marcelsmum,
I know how you feel, I have suffered the same and it is terrible. The only thing that made me feel better was to do something for my baby that should have been with me. On the due dates for each of the babies that I have lost I have lit a candle for them in the city's main cathedral. If that doesn't appeal, you could may be plant a rose bush or a tree for your baby. It is no consolation for the one that you have lost but it can bring some version of comfort.
I hope you get pregnant again soon and that it all works out, but I know that it doesn't make up for the one you lost.
All the best.

[Adria]

Nothing i can say will ease what you are feeling. My Due Date is 17 days away. I have been nervous since December.
I keep thinking this should be my last week of work. I should be huge by now.
:hugs:

[~Alicia]

:( :hugs: :hugs: :hugs:

[cmd'smum]

:hugs: Aww sweety, I felt like this too on my "EDD" last November. I also started to question whether I would have another child, it took us 6 months after our m/c to finally conceive again...........it WILL happen for you too :yes: , you will have another baby and sibling for your son. You have every right to be feeling this way, so sorry you have had to go through all this. I have everything crossed that you get that well deserved :bfp: very very soon!:hugs: Please pm me if you ever want to chat!

[bigglet]

oh I'm so sorry :hugs:

I'm dreading 3 August this year because that was my due date and I don't know what I'll do on that day. Like you I envision myself being at work with everyone around me not knowing or really caring....

I don't know what else to say but I'm wishing you all the pregnancy luck I can muster and sending it your way....

[connorlulu]

St Valntine's Day last year was my due date, so the anniversary is coming up.

Last year I went to work for half a day, thinking that I wanted to keep myself busy but instead trying to hide my tears from my workmates. I left and got myself a massage instead. My husband sent me flowers to work - everyone just thought they were for Val day.

I'm very lucky in that I was able to get pregnant again quickly, not everyone's that fortunate.

RIP Robert Michael, born 17/9/2005 @ 18 wks

[Percy]

Im so sorry for your loss. The anniversaries are always the hardest.

Try and take some time out today and pamper yourself. I will keep you in my prayers!:hugs:

[shed]

Yours is the saddest post I have ever read. I am so sorry for your loss. There is nothing more I can say, I just feel very very sad for you.

Look after yourself.

[marcelsmum]

Thank you girls for all your support,

Well Yesterday is over, thank god... Needless to say DS received a lot of hugs last night and DP was so fantastic and caring...
I had a big cry after dinner and thismorning woke feeling a lot better.... Time to start looking forward to the future not agonising over the past.
I will have another bub ... I just hope it is soon.

Again thankyou girls for all your support, where would I be without BUBHUB to vent my fears and sadness. DP just doesnt understand but Most of you understand the insane pull that leads us mothers..

THANKS

[Pebbles]

Oh hun, I am glad you are feeling a bit better today. I have PM'd you...

[Rowie]

Marcelsmum
Chin up mate, yeah it will get better and you will have another bub. Stay positive.

[Rianna]

Hi marcelsmum :hugs:
I know exactly what you're going through. I had two miscarriages last year and my second baby's due date is fast approaching on February 20th. This will be my hubbies birthday and also our appointment with the Pregnancy Management Clinic to discuss all our test results and our options going forward. I'm kind of dreading this time as I know what a mess I was last time. I wasn't expecting to be but it just kind of snuck up on me like a wave of grief... it even took me a while to realise what was going on. Best of luck with your journey, I hope everything works out for us both!

[iluvmeboyz]

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