BubbaNoogie
14-01-2007, 19:50
Well I am crying and I am starting to realise I havent fully grieved for my loss. I have been reading and posting in a few threads in this section and all these feelings have started to well up to the surface.
I miscarried in May 2005...twins... it was horrible and what made it worse was when I knew I was miscarrying both my hubby and myself were holding out hope that a least one of them had survived....after an U/S we discovered that they were both gone....so we had to mourn the loss of two babies at the same time....all our hopes and dreams for these to babies gone....we were devastated....
Our wedding was a month away so I just had to get on with it.... our wedding day was very bittersweet....
After the wedding I began to grieve a bit,but was really focused on getting pregnant again and I did a month later.... spent the whole pregnancy worrying about this bub, although I knew our two angels were looking out for her, so my grief was pushed aside again.
There is not a day that goes by that I dont think of them....I try not to let it get to me.
Now I am starting to feel so sad and i cant get it out of my mind....my best friend is pregnant with twins and it is going really well thank goodness....hearing her making plans for them reminds me of all the hopes and dreams I had for my babies....I dont know.... I just feel really raw.... I dont really know why I am posting this....I suppose letting it out might help....
I miscarried in May 2005...twins... it was horrible and what made it worse was when I knew I was miscarrying both my hubby and myself were holding out hope that a least one of them had survived....after an U/S we discovered that they were both gone....so we had to mourn the loss of two babies at the same time....all our hopes and dreams for these to babies gone....we were devastated....
Our wedding was a month away so I just had to get on with it.... our wedding day was very bittersweet....
After the wedding I began to grieve a bit,but was really focused on getting pregnant again and I did a month later.... spent the whole pregnancy worrying about this bub, although I knew our two angels were looking out for her, so my grief was pushed aside again.
There is not a day that goes by that I dont think of them....I try not to let it get to me.
Now I am starting to feel so sad and i cant get it out of my mind....my best friend is pregnant with twins and it is going really well thank goodness....hearing her making plans for them reminds me of all the hopes and dreams I had for my babies....I dont know.... I just feel really raw.... I dont really know why I am posting this....I suppose letting it out might help....