*munchkin*
28-11-2006, 23:34
Well, my partner (now ex), Mr "I'm moving to Coober Pedy with or without you", has left today, after months of agony and pain. Finally. I thought I would just feel relief, but I feel such a mix of emotions. He was SO nice to me during the last 2 weeks, that we got back to a place where I could actually see why I had loved him in the beginning. Which made it even harder when it came time for him to leave. I wish he'd just been an ****hole, like he was before that, so then I could just detest him, and not miss him like I do this minute. And then I am angry at myself for missing a man who chose to move 1500km away from his 4 month old beautiful, happy, sweet daughter. I guess it's just hard tonight, as the house is quiet and empty. Life will look brighter tomorrow.
HAve to share the most ridiculous thing he said to me. As he is about to hop in his car to drive 1500 kilometres away from me and DD, he says "I think if they were writing a book on our lives, only the first 2 chapters have been written. I like to think there are more chapters to come, and that once I get this out of my system we will one day have more children and the fairytale wedding. I can't imagine being with anyone but you." :eek: :banghead: I couldn't speak, I was sooooo stunned and horrified and incredulous. The man has reached new heights of delusion, to think he can "get this out of his system" (which he's had 44 years to do already...) and then come back to me and DD and live happily ever after!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE???????? I went to see my counsellor after this and he said "Pretend your life is a movie, and turn down volume on the 'sound track'. Just watch the actions and you will see the truth". Good advice.
The butt-head then had the hide to send me a text message tonight telling me he misses us already!! He truly lives in a parallel universe.
Anyway, I have no doubt that me and DD are better off without him in our day to day lives. Bless Bub Hub for providing a forum for venting. On-line therapy for free!!!
HAve to share the most ridiculous thing he said to me. As he is about to hop in his car to drive 1500 kilometres away from me and DD, he says "I think if they were writing a book on our lives, only the first 2 chapters have been written. I like to think there are more chapters to come, and that once I get this out of my system we will one day have more children and the fairytale wedding. I can't imagine being with anyone but you." :eek: :banghead: I couldn't speak, I was sooooo stunned and horrified and incredulous. The man has reached new heights of delusion, to think he can "get this out of his system" (which he's had 44 years to do already...) and then come back to me and DD and live happily ever after!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE???????? I went to see my counsellor after this and he said "Pretend your life is a movie, and turn down volume on the 'sound track'. Just watch the actions and you will see the truth". Good advice.
The butt-head then had the hide to send me a text message tonight telling me he misses us already!! He truly lives in a parallel universe.
Anyway, I have no doubt that me and DD are better off without him in our day to day lives. Bless Bub Hub for providing a forum for venting. On-line therapy for free!!!