Another Thread Opened the door

[blaykendtahneemum]

well where do i start... i just replyed to another thread about eating disorders, that made me realise again i have never got over my own... i have always suffered from bullemia as a young child and threw out my teen age years, now as an adult i just dont feel hunger.... if i do eat its maybe once a day if im lucky and i bindge eat untill im almost sick... im not asking for advise or anything well i dont think i am... but replying to that other thread really opened my eyes to my own problems.... its much harder now as i a pg and i have to eat but im doing the same bindge eating all the time... the worst part of it all my weight will not go above 58kgs and my family and friends think i suffer from anerixor.. i know the spelling to that is wrong ... anywaqys ive got it out now so ill stop having my windge..:gloomy:

[LA62]

:hugs: I am also a ( was) a sufferer

Im up down all the time although i have been clean for 3 years...it still eats ( excuse the pun :laughing:) away at me daily

i think about what i put im my mouth 24/7...i have days when the little :devil6: says no dont eat that you'll get fat:banghead:

so you are not alone and i dont mind other people reading this it is not a secret and its nothing to be ashamed of either!....its rife thanks to insensative people and silly celeb mags!!

PM me if you need to chat

[shelby67]

Hi blaykendtahneemum and LA62,
I have no experience with bulimia so can't say much on that but I have found it is soooo hard to totally recover from anorexia, I can imagine bulimia would be just as hard to recover from also.
I find myself at a "functioning" weight, but wish I could just eat freely with out the guilt or paranoia....but it just doesn't happen.
Can't offer any advice, just wanted to say that you are not alone with the struggle.
Take care,
Shelby.

[LA62]

Hi shelby:wave:

yes i understand totally what your going through

i take it one day at a time, everyday is different day one good one bad:yes:

when people say oh your skinny i think what a load of tosh!..but thats something i have to learn to live with it will never go away and thats that

i cope with it but its hard :hugs: to you

[Wish_Bear]

I feel the same. I think about food 24/7. What goes in my mouth, how much, if I am getting fatter just eating it, what I am going to eat for my next meal but then feel guilty. It rules my life. I have had bullimia and Anorexia but not in extreme cases. I kinda tried to see what they would be like IYKWIM?? I lived on bread for months on end and exercised till there was nothing left of me.
Being pregnant was hard for me as I felt "fat" all the time and hated my post preg body. Still do.
I am so warped that I am actually glad I am on anti depressants as they suppress my appettite! How ****ed up am I!!:yes:

[sandy_1902]

i totally no wat thats like..

im a anorexic or was i dunno i dnt belive i have recovered but i eat for the well being of my child becuase it means more to me then anything and its proff that young parents can be brilliant becuase while i no adualts (late 20's early 30's) teeenagers are more likely

i mean i go crazy when people say young parents dont go trhough much **** to get to the point where they have a child. I have been sed to once becuase i have had it quite easily compared to some young mothers

"you dont no wat its like to be judged or to go through hardships in your life"

i had to change my mind matters to eating food from eating nothing