EcstaticEm
17-11-2006, 08:47 AM
I did not know I was strong enough to start this thread, but after reading Adele's Post I just feel so sad to hear so many storys so simmilar to mine... big big :hugs:
Adele
I have Posted my termination Journey, and I felt a huge weight lifted off when I did. It’s not something I share much, and to be honest. I did not think it had affected my life overall. I have been struggling lately, with depression, and old behaviours had started creeping out of the woodwork, So I booked in to see my Psyc. I had not seen her for five years, but she had helped me through some very rough times as a kid, and as an adolescent, so I trust her completely.
We have been talking about TTC a lot, cause my failure to get UTD was what I blamed my “breakdown” on.. She asked if she could read my TTC diary, and I said O.K… well, after she read it, she opened another site told me to read through the symptoms and see what I thought. (she went out and made us cuppa’s while I read) Well, I was floored, and bawling by the time she came back. It was so me… What I feel seems to have a name, and other people feel it too.. I was crying, and freaking out, and she just held me, and said she remembered when I was pregnant, I called my baby Dream,.. I had never made the connection between my TTC “dream” and my little girl I let go “dream” I guess I really tried to block it all out.
I go to the PASS support board a lot now, and I am learning to re-look at how I think about myself, the choice I made and how I think about my fertility. I was so grateful to Anne for showing me the site, I want to post it here. http://afterabortion.com/faq.html (http://afterabortion.com/faq.html)
I really hope that it can help someone else. If you go to the site, and you feel like you need to talk, but are not ready to post. Please PM me.. anytime. :hugs: to anyone feeling alone today.
Adele
I have Posted my termination Journey, and I felt a huge weight lifted off when I did. It’s not something I share much, and to be honest. I did not think it had affected my life overall. I have been struggling lately, with depression, and old behaviours had started creeping out of the woodwork, So I booked in to see my Psyc. I had not seen her for five years, but she had helped me through some very rough times as a kid, and as an adolescent, so I trust her completely.
We have been talking about TTC a lot, cause my failure to get UTD was what I blamed my “breakdown” on.. She asked if she could read my TTC diary, and I said O.K… well, after she read it, she opened another site told me to read through the symptoms and see what I thought. (she went out and made us cuppa’s while I read) Well, I was floored, and bawling by the time she came back. It was so me… What I feel seems to have a name, and other people feel it too.. I was crying, and freaking out, and she just held me, and said she remembered when I was pregnant, I called my baby Dream,.. I had never made the connection between my TTC “dream” and my little girl I let go “dream” I guess I really tried to block it all out.
I go to the PASS support board a lot now, and I am learning to re-look at how I think about myself, the choice I made and how I think about my fertility. I was so grateful to Anne for showing me the site, I want to post it here. http://afterabortion.com/faq.html (http://afterabortion.com/faq.html)
I really hope that it can help someone else. If you go to the site, and you feel like you need to talk, but are not ready to post. Please PM me.. anytime. :hugs: to anyone feeling alone today.