Cant wait, want to try NOW

[maybe1more]

Hi all, as most of you already know i had a Molar pregnancy and lost my baby at 11 and a half weeks in August. Due to the risk of cancer growing in the uterus i am unable to fall pregnant for 6 months after my hcg levels have dropped to below 5ml. My levels took 11 weeks to drop to below 5ml which meant i had to have weekly blood tests. My levels were 3ml at my last blood test which means now i have to have them done monthly for 6 months before i can try again, due to if my levels were to go up i would have to have kemo as thats means that cancer has grown in the uterus, as i dont think i can wait untill april next year i want to try after christmas if i know my levels are still low, my son will be 29 months at this time and i really yearn for another baby, I know that the doctors are doing there best to make sure im ok but i cant wait! Do you think im being selfish? I know i will be going against my doctors wishes, but the waiting is really getting to me.

[aardvark]

It would be very hard, but I think you owe it to yourself and your son to wait it out.

If you conceive, the hormone levels in your body will mask any cancer which may be there.

You put yourself at risk, potentially put the next baby at risk, and also run the risk of your existing child losing his Mum.

Things don't always go to plan - I never planned a 10 year gap between #1 and #2, but that is how it worked out, and even though they are years apart, they are almost inseparable.

Be patient, maybe get some counselling. It would be a big risk to take.

[clairbear]

Dear firstbub, you poor thing...can't imagine what it must be like to have to wait for so long if your heart is set on another baby. Don't know much about the medical side of things but I think aardvark may be right, please don't risk it if there is any possibility of danger to the baby or yourself!

I hope me saying that I wouldn't have minded waiting six more months to try for my second now that the scary reality looms of having a newborn with an under 3 year old doesn't offend or upset you. Try to focus on the positive side of that.....there are many aspects I can think of that's for sure!

I am thinking of you sweetie!

[maybe1more]

Aardvark- i understand where your coming from, im being selfish thinking of what i want, and not what i risk to lose if things go wrong, its just hard to be paitent for soon long, i just need a swift kick up the bum to make me realise its not just about me, its something that will effect my whole family.

Clairebear- I appreciate your honestly about waitting, your talking from experience and bub isnt hear yet. When you know you cant have something you want it makes you want it all the more and i think thats what im dealing with at the moment, my paitents are wearing thin, but i should be grateful that my levels haven`t gone up instead of thinking about what i want. Hopefully after Christmas time will fly, and but the time i can try again Connor will be almost 3 so he will probably be nearing 4 when i have my next bub.