Why is getting help so hard?

[Gruzzlebub]

I've been reading some of the posts here and in so many of them, I can see myself and my two boys ... there are days (more often than not) when I find myself gritting my teeth, trying to keep it together and not lose it.

There are also days when I can't keep it together - and I shout, I scream or I have hit DS1. Those are sh!t days. Those days I feel like I am the worse mother on earth.

So with DS2 at 6 mths, and DS1 at 3 and 1/2 - I decided to get professional help. I am seeing a clinical psychologist who also specialises with children's issues.

It is the best thing I have ever done.

I just wanted to say :hugs: to all of you mums who find it hard not to feel angry, who find it hard some days. All I can say though, if it is really getting bad - for me it was when I hit my DS1 - Get Help.

It will be probably one of the hardest things for you to do - but it has been the best thing for me and my little ones.

[Gruzzlebub]

Oh, I forgot to say, I'm not "cured" - I still shout, I still grit my teeth - and there are days when I just feel completely overwhelmed.

But I know that there are reasons for the way I feel, I know that there are ways of helping how I feel, and I know that I've got someone to talk to about it. It is the best feeling to hear from my clin psych "It's ok, there is nothing we can't fix". She says it to me every visit.

And you know what? I'm starting to believe her.

:hugs: to everyone.
xx

[Jinglebells]

Thats good to hear your getting help, so many dont think of getting help, and then things just start getting worse and worse, good on you for realising you needed help :thumbsup:

[Kaycee]

Gruzzlebub (great name),

Congratulations on seeking help. It sounds like you are beginning to see a light at the end of the tunnel. I hope the same happens for me.

As someone who has also recently decided to get help I found your post quite inspiring.

And yes, it is so hard to make that call. For me the reasons were
* I should be able to get out of this myself (actually, I should take the word "should" out of my vocab) ie I felt that getting help is a sign of weakness but I know now that it is not.
*I feel guilty for feeling like this because actually my life is pretty good.

But I finally did seek help because I deserve to feel better, and my family deserves better too. Heres hoping it works.

Hugs, Kaycee