Almost a year

[Amira]

Its been almost a year since my brother died in a car accicent.
I stupidly thought that it would have gotten easier by now. If anything its gotten harder. People expect us to feel better or to have "gotten over it".
My parents are putting on a brave face. But mum isnt sleeping well and is struggling. My dad misses him and is just so lost.

My brother and sister cant even be civil to each other anymore. They both need a kick up the butt. They dont realise the extra worry they cause mum and dad.

As for me im just trying to keep it together.

Not sure what the real point of this post is. Just had to get it out.

[OffwiththePixies]

Sending you lots and lots of hugs. I don't even know what to say. I don't think I could ever breathe again if I lost my brother, so I can't even imagine the pain you must feel, every single day. I'm so so sorry for your loss. If you'd like to talk more please feel free to pm me I'm happy to listen. I can't believe people expect you to move on... I couldn't ever do it. :no: It's okay for it still to hurt. I hope that you are okay. Try to remember your brother for who he was and the love he gave you. Maybe try talking to your brother and sister?

[Maybelline]

So sorry for your loss..
I lost my mum to cancer 10 years ago..it hasn't got easier ..if anything I miss her more...I find talking about her really helps..
I can't imagine the grief of losing a sibbling ..or for your parents losing a child...

hope you have support of friends and family..

[mad house mumma]

huge hugs darl its been 10yrs this oct since we lost my brother and i will tell you know it doesnt get easier you dont just get over it i still feel pain everyday the best thing i found was talking about him and remembering all the good memory's and sharing them with my kids
my mum still to this day puts on a brave face it has changed her in so many ways and i can see how much it killed her to have to bury 1 of her babies
only advice i can give is try and keep his memory alive and share with your lovd one's and let your mum and dad know its ok to cry we always get together on the day he died (23rd oct) and cry,laugh remember all the good times with him
and your brother and sister need a kick up the bum if anything losing our brother has brought us together we always say i love you now cause yu never know when that last time will be
if you ever need to talk pm me

[Amira]

Thankyou for the replies. Ive realised that ive avoided going back to visit my parents since his accident. I think going back there without him being there will make it all more real.