charliesmummy
14-10-2006, 10:46 PM
hello everyone i thought id share my termination story for anyone who finds it interesting or helpfull. i was 19 when i fell pregnant to my current partner of which i had been seeing for 3 years. I carry a chromosome abnormality which can have four outcomes for me when i fall pregnant,one being that can make me produce children with abnormal chromosomes resulting in there death immediately following birth , miscarrying the child , a termination or no abnormalities resulting in a normal pregnancy. I wasnt upset when i fell pregnant as we were engaged and planning on having a family anyway we both worked so money wasnt a issue and we had been living together for a year and a half. So knowing all my abnormallities we decided to go through with the pregnancy. i made it through the first 8 weeks in that time i had to book into a specialist to have a cvs done to detect the chromosomes of the baby. i had the cvs done at 12 weeks but laying there while they scanned my tummy before the procedure the room went quiet as they noticed abnormalities on the ultrasound they requested i have more tests done just in case it wasnt related to my current condition. I knew then and all along i guess that this pregnancy wasnt going to happen. it takes 2 weeks to get your results from a cvs and after 2 and a half weeks i was calling everyday to see if my results had arrived. i ended up getting my results 2 weeks late. i was told to come to the hospital immediately as they wanted to discuss my results. I remember being so devestated by that one phonecall. going through the usual why me? the anger the tears the guiltyness the complete shutdown. I went to the hospital the next day and was in denial about the whole thing that they showed me the results all i can remember from that piece of paper was my boy was abnormal. I had one last scan to see the position of the baby i didnt look as i knew that i wouldnt be able to go through with it if i did. i went home and got my things and they put me in hospital overnight were i had 2 lots of vaginal pesserys to soften my cervix. They had organised my partner to stay with me which was great to have him there. I went through a great deal of pain that night that i started vomiting from it they gave me 2 injections to numb the pain and to sop me from vomitting.:thumbsdown: i had the termination at 9 am the next morning the procedure taking 1 hour and a half and went home at 1 pm. 3 days later it was my 20th birthday. its gotten much easier now and only little things trigger off memorys. We didnt try for another baby we left it for six months when we decided that we were ready. and after a year of trying we fell pregnant again. i went through the same thing (cvs) even in the same room as my first pregnancy but when they rang me exactly 2 weeks later i knew that it wasnt going to be the same outcome. I was told that i was having a healthy normal girl who is now 8 months old. I dont think anymore why me i just know that , that child wasnt ready to come into this world just yet and that he is waiting for his mummy to be ready for the special little man and that he wanted a big sister first.:yes: i dont regret having my termination as really the only other option was to give birth to a child that would have died otherwise. but it was a very hard decision even when the answer was staring me in the face.