mad house mumma
18-12-2011, 10:01
its been 1yr today since my angel was taken and i feel finally ready to write my story
wedneday 15th dec 2010 i went to the dr as i had been bleeding on and off for 3 weeks we had been using protection since i had bubba in aug the dr asked if i had been having any pain at all i was having pain every now and then on my right side she said first thing she wants to do is rule out pregnancy so done a urine test then and not even 30 secs after she put it in she called me over and here was a dark pink + i didnt know what to do i just sat there she said she wants me to go to hospital now cause she wants a ultrasound done today and we couldnt get in anywhere to get one so off my mum me and my younger 3 kids go to hospital ring df on the way to tell him that i am pregnant but it looks like a ectopic so need him to pick the older 2 up from school and take them to a friends house and come and pick mum and the kids up and take them home cause i dont know how long i will be there for get to hospital about 1:30pm get seen then sent back to the waiting room finally at 3:30 i get taken in to see a dr what around till 5:30 to be told they cant do a ultrasound now today as the shut at 5 so wil go to a ward and have one tomorrow finally at 7:30 i get taken to a ward still nil and wasnt feeling the best had been cramping pretty bad for a couple hrs get bloods done before i go to sleep
thursday 16th dec (my birthday) i get told they will arrange for my ultrasound that morning and should know more after that 10:30am i get more bloods done to check whats happening with my hcg levels 1:30pm im still waiting to see the dr and get ultrasoun done 2pm i go to the toilet and pass a clot the size of a bigish orange and start getting the worse cramps that leave me hunched over and not able to move buzz for the nurse to help get me out of the bathroom she comes and helps me back to bed gives me painkillers by this stage im a wreck i cant stop crying a dr comes and see's me and ring thru to get a ultrasound done now finally 3:15pm they come get me to go for my ultrasound get it done and the tech was so nice she's like im sorry yes its a ectopic by this stage i knew in my heart anyway but the tears started again she sat there for 5 mins just holding my hand get taken back to my room get another lot of bloods done at 4:45pm 5:10pm the dr comes and see's me again and tells me i can have something to eat atm there's nothing they can do they will check my blood test in the morning and work out where to go from there
friday 17th dec
get bloods done again at 8:30am have the room to myself till 12:30pm when a nurse comes to see me cause they need the private room i ask do they know whats going on with the blood results she said they are going up and down with each test but the dr will talk to me more this afternoon 3:30pm dr comes and talks to me and say's they want to operate tomorrow and remove my right tube and he say's they may have to go thru my caesar scar and he would feel its safer for me to get my left tube cut and tied as my caesars are to close and now its not safe to try and have another pregnancy so give permisson to have my left tube done at the same time
saturday 18th dec
im nil from midnite the dr comes and see's me at at 11am and tells me i should be in by 12:30 11:45am they come and get me i get into therate and get told to start counting dont even remember starting to count finally wake up at 8:30pm back in the ward feeling like i have been hit by a truck they told me i had some dramas after the op after the breathing tube was removered i spewed and ended up breathing some in so woke up with a really sore throut belly sore from coughing and the worse pain in shoulder they get me up at 9:45pm to walk for a bit cause it was hurting laying down
sunday 19th dec
the dr comes and tells me everything went well besides the dramas when they finished i had forgetting to ask before how far they think i was he said going by the first lots of blood and the fact that bubba was only 16 weeks old and we had only dtd 3times i was about 9 1/2 weeks
monday 20th dec
i get discharged home to my beautiful kids that i hadnt seen since thursday afternoon
so today marks 1yr since my beautiful angel was taken from us i still have moments where i cant stop crying when my older boys ask when we are having another baby but i cant brin myself to tell them we wont ever have another
wedneday 15th dec 2010 i went to the dr as i had been bleeding on and off for 3 weeks we had been using protection since i had bubba in aug the dr asked if i had been having any pain at all i was having pain every now and then on my right side she said first thing she wants to do is rule out pregnancy so done a urine test then and not even 30 secs after she put it in she called me over and here was a dark pink + i didnt know what to do i just sat there she said she wants me to go to hospital now cause she wants a ultrasound done today and we couldnt get in anywhere to get one so off my mum me and my younger 3 kids go to hospital ring df on the way to tell him that i am pregnant but it looks like a ectopic so need him to pick the older 2 up from school and take them to a friends house and come and pick mum and the kids up and take them home cause i dont know how long i will be there for get to hospital about 1:30pm get seen then sent back to the waiting room finally at 3:30 i get taken in to see a dr what around till 5:30 to be told they cant do a ultrasound now today as the shut at 5 so wil go to a ward and have one tomorrow finally at 7:30 i get taken to a ward still nil and wasnt feeling the best had been cramping pretty bad for a couple hrs get bloods done before i go to sleep
thursday 16th dec (my birthday) i get told they will arrange for my ultrasound that morning and should know more after that 10:30am i get more bloods done to check whats happening with my hcg levels 1:30pm im still waiting to see the dr and get ultrasoun done 2pm i go to the toilet and pass a clot the size of a bigish orange and start getting the worse cramps that leave me hunched over and not able to move buzz for the nurse to help get me out of the bathroom she comes and helps me back to bed gives me painkillers by this stage im a wreck i cant stop crying a dr comes and see's me and ring thru to get a ultrasound done now finally 3:15pm they come get me to go for my ultrasound get it done and the tech was so nice she's like im sorry yes its a ectopic by this stage i knew in my heart anyway but the tears started again she sat there for 5 mins just holding my hand get taken back to my room get another lot of bloods done at 4:45pm 5:10pm the dr comes and see's me again and tells me i can have something to eat atm there's nothing they can do they will check my blood test in the morning and work out where to go from there
friday 17th dec
get bloods done again at 8:30am have the room to myself till 12:30pm when a nurse comes to see me cause they need the private room i ask do they know whats going on with the blood results she said they are going up and down with each test but the dr will talk to me more this afternoon 3:30pm dr comes and talks to me and say's they want to operate tomorrow and remove my right tube and he say's they may have to go thru my caesar scar and he would feel its safer for me to get my left tube cut and tied as my caesars are to close and now its not safe to try and have another pregnancy so give permisson to have my left tube done at the same time
saturday 18th dec
im nil from midnite the dr comes and see's me at at 11am and tells me i should be in by 12:30 11:45am they come and get me i get into therate and get told to start counting dont even remember starting to count finally wake up at 8:30pm back in the ward feeling like i have been hit by a truck they told me i had some dramas after the op after the breathing tube was removered i spewed and ended up breathing some in so woke up with a really sore throut belly sore from coughing and the worse pain in shoulder they get me up at 9:45pm to walk for a bit cause it was hurting laying down
sunday 19th dec
the dr comes and tells me everything went well besides the dramas when they finished i had forgetting to ask before how far they think i was he said going by the first lots of blood and the fact that bubba was only 16 weeks old and we had only dtd 3times i was about 9 1/2 weeks
monday 20th dec
i get discharged home to my beautiful kids that i hadnt seen since thursday afternoon
so today marks 1yr since my beautiful angel was taken from us i still have moments where i cant stop crying when my older boys ask when we are having another baby but i cant brin myself to tell them we wont ever have another