Again!!!!!!

[JuniorMinime]

Hi Everyone,

My name is Becs and last year in October I lost my little boy Ethan at 15wks after having a CVS. All tests came back inconclusive. So we didn't lose hope at all and thought well we shall try again. This year in May I fell preg again but lost it naturally. Then as a complete surprise we fell again and was due in April next year!!!

The dr and ob was very happy cause everything was looking really good, I had the sore boobs, m/s but all day, tiredness everything. The ob even found the heart beating away at 5wks!!! I went for 3 scans and everytime my ob was even happier.

Then on Monday 25/9 we went for our scan and proper app to book into hospital etc and get everything sorted out. We went for the scan after all this and my ob said that it's not good and that he couldn't find the heart beting at all. It had gone about 1-2 days ago. The baby was the right size as well!! I was so numb and angry (at who I do not know). I had the D+C on Wednesday last week and here I am again..........devastated and without my baby!!!

The dr's are baffled and are doing all the tests that they can do and in the meantime my partner and I are going for chromosome testing, genetic counselling and all the other tests that we can go for. I just hope we get some answers. We know I can fall preg but we just can't keep it so please god give us the strength.

I still feel close to my april thread ladies and will pop in every now and again but the pain is so strong that it hurts to see them all happy. I just want to be happy again like them that's all.

Well I hope I get know you ladies and that we can console each other in this hard time cause I know I need it.

[Bron]

Oh Becs, I am so so sorry for your loss.

I'm thinking of you and your partner.

[M O P]

:hugs: Oh Becs that's terrible

:fingerscrossed: with your tests

[alicesmum]

I am so sorry! you must be feeling so sad, so awful. There isn't much to say in these circumstances except sorry. I have 3 friends who have lost babies. One had a still birth and hasn't falling pregnant again since (18 months later). Another who lost her little boy when he was 4 days old, and my best friend lost her little girl when she was 10 days old and THEN lost her second baby (a boy) at 20 weeks gestation. So although I haven't suffered loss like this myself, I have seen a lot of it and my heart truly goes out to you.

you are not alone. what about joining SANDS or some other support network for people who have been through something similiar?

[mumof three]

:crying: I am so sad for you. What an awful time. It's all so unfair. :crying:
I wish a :hugs: could make you feel better, but it seems completely inadequate. I hope you have some loving family and friends who are supporting you. You are not alone.

[Percy]

I am so very sorry for your loss. How heartbreaking. I know how it feels to hear that strong hearbeat, and then never again.

Lots of:hugs: and support for you and your partner.

Let us know how the test results go.

p.s If you need a little extra help... I found SANDS fantastic.

[zafyrezmummy]

Hey Becs
I just wanted to send you some :hugs: :hugs: :hugs:
I'm so sorry this has happened, I wish i had somethin better to say.
Good luck with the tests, i hope you find your answers.
Take Care, if you need to talk anytime your more than welcome to pm me.
:hugs:
~dimarie

[wa mum of 4]

Hi Becs,
I am so sorry for your loss.:crying:
I do hope there is a light at the end of all this for you.
My heart goes out to you and your DH.:hugs:
Sarah

[MilkOnTap]

Becs - I am so sorry to hear about your losses... Please take time to grieve for your angel babies, and dont put too much pressure on yourself at the moment. You sound like quite a strong person so I wish you all the best with your tests to find out why your angels made an early trip to heaven.

Hugs, Ally