Feeling SO crap *vent*

[remembertobreathe]

I am at a loss. I feel so depressed. I have so much stuff that I need to do. I can't even manage my groceries. I can't think of what to cook, what to get DS, I have washing that I need to do, business stuff that I need to think about. My house is a mess, my DP is upset with me. My relationship is doing my head in, and I think it's just that - all in my damn head. I'm a talk myself into issues type of person and it seems that I've done just that. I feel so unhealthy, so unmotivated. All I want to do is sit here and cry!

Does anyone else feel like this? Like it's just not going to get any better and it's the same thing over and over again every day, I am going insane. I'm really resenting being a SAHM mother, I feel as though I can't handle it! I love my Son and I adore all the time in the world with him but I don't get out much and my one outlet, my MIL has told me that she's really stressed at work and her BP is up and I don't want to burden her with my troubles.

I don't drive and I barely exercise, lately I just sit around feeling sorry for myself.

But it's my own fault. I'm talking myself into this remember?

Sh!t. What can I do to feel better? Don't suggest a walk! BLERGH!

I apologise if you're even more depressed yourself after reading this :laughing:

[dreadlockfairy]

Hugs babe, I think everyone has days like that. This is what I do on the verge of total breakdown - stop everything you're doing. Put the kids in front of the tv, or somewhere they can entertain themselves for a while. Make a cup of tea. Sit down, get comfy & drink slowly. And think to yourself, whatever will happen will happen - I accept the current situation for what it is.

Feel better soon!

[PurpleStars]

Wanted to send you some hugs. :hugs::hugs::hugs:

With the housework & meals side of things I can highly recommend flylady.net. She also has some free podcasts on iTunes that are kind of fun to listen to - well I think they are anyway!

Am I allowed to put links?

http://itunes.apple.com/au/podcast/flylady-tools-blog-talk-radio/id277956251

There is a list of the montly habits she talks about on her website. Things like menu planning and dealing with laundry. They give me a bit of pep if I listen to them when I don't feel like tackling anything. Take from her what helps and leave the bits you don't like, she's all about tailoring her ideas to suit what YOU need to get done.

I hope some of that helps. :hugs:

[Lock and Lu]

Can you call a friend and organise to go out for dinner and a couple of drinks? Leave DS at home with his dad or your mil. Dress up, put on some heels and lipstick and let your hair down-even if it's for 2 hours!

Sometimes feeling like your own person and not 'just someone's mum' can make all the difference.

[motherslilhelper]

Hi Remembertobreathe,

I have been lurking for a few days around this forum for various reasons but couldn't go past this post without writing something. I just wanted to tell you, you aren't alone. I personally have been where you are emotionally and only a few months ago. My battle with depression had me coming home from work for lunch and just starting to cry and couldn't stop for hours, I couldn't do anything even the simplest of things like going shopping, cleaning, cooking etc. I didn't feel like myself at all and couldn't get motivated for life.

During one of these crying bouts I just got onto the yellow pages and looked up psychologists and started phoning down the list until I got someone that answered and could see me. I had never wanted to prior to this but I'd hit rock bottom so I had no other choice (not saying your situation is the same this is just what I went through).

It worked out really well for me, got some stuff sorted and also learned strategies for sorting out my feelings etc before it goes in the downward cycle again. I wouldn't have made it through without that lifeline because I my friends and family just didn't really understand what I was going through in fact most of them were so used to unburdening themselves on me that they didn't know what to say or how to help. The psychologist was great though and I got a whole bunch back on medicare so it only cost me something like $30 a session in the end.

[PurpleStars]

I also got an email from Woolies saying they have free delivery til the 21st of August. If its an issue about getting out of the house to do the groceries, that might help?

Taken from their email: Pay online before 21st August 2011 and enter promotional code PEL001 (pressing enter to redeem) before paying online at the checkout and enjoy FREE* delivery.

[chameleon]

:hugs: I seem to go through stages like this too, where everything just gets on top of me. In fact I have been in one of those spirals for the past few months (literally feeling like I do nothing all day) and am only starting to get out of it now.

Would your DP or any friends or family maybe be able to come over and give you a hand to get on top of things? That way you just need to "stay" on top, as opposed to climb out... or even if you could get someone to watch your DS for the day so you can have some uninterrupted time to do the things you need to do around the house and even squeeze in a bit of relaxation time for yourself:D

The grocery shopping online thing sounds like it could be a good idea too, if going to the grocery store seems like too much trouble.

Can I also ask why you think you talked yourself into it?