sweetums89
09-04-2011, 12:53
Well I was 15 and had been with my then bf for a couple of months. I had just left home and was living with my bf and one of his mates, and then my twin sister and her bf moved in. I can't really remember how I knew I was late, i didn't even keep track of my periods. Well I was one day late and my bf went out and bought a test. Came home and took it. To my surprise the result was :bfp:. I didn't know what to think or feel. Pregnancy had never even popped in my head, but i spose you don't think about that stuff when your only 15. I was in shock for a few days. I was kinda happy, don't really know why. And my bf told me to get an abortion. He told me if I loved him I would. Being that young I thought I loved him, so did what he wanted. By all means it was not what i wanted. My mum had already given me and my twin sister a talk about it as my mum had an abortion when us kids were young. I never thought I would ever get one, and I'm sure my mum thought that too.
Well I had the hard job of calling my mum and her bf to tell them what was going on. My mum was speechless when I told her and gave the phone to her bf. Made me feel sad, I didn't want my mum to react that way :crying:. My dad had never really been in my life, but i had no one else to take me, I needed a parents consent, plus needed his medicare card so it didn't cost as much. He agreed, sadly that was one of the only times he was there for me. My bf couldn't even tell his parents what he needed the money for. He was ashamed, he was 19, I was 15, there was no way his parents would approve :angryfists:.
It took me many days, and many calling then hanging up to make an appointment. I finally did it, i made that awful appointment. My bf was happy, i thought i was too.
The day arrived and my dad took me, my sister and bf came too. There was protesters nearby which made it that much harder. Me and my dad went in. Had to fill out a bunch of papers and talk to a councilor. Got given a gown to change into, then into waiting room with about 6 other young girls, just watching daytime TV. I got called to go have an u/s. Got told I was 9+1weeks. Went back and waited.
Eventually the time came, and I got called in, I was so scared , I didn't know what was gona happen. But the nurses were nice, and the next thing I know I was put to sleep. Woke up, and felt ok, got given a drink and cookies. And a needle since Im a negative blood group. My dad, sister and bf got worried when an ambulance arrived, but it wasnt for me. Then my bf took me home.
I didn't think too much of it. Didn't really want to. Then I decided to do some research about it when I was 17, when i was with my now DP I didn't really have the accessibility to information when I had the abortion. What I found shocked me, and has made me severely regret what I had done. I never knew what happened, or what the process was. I have cried many nights since then. I REGRETTED what I had done. I wished that I could have the info I had now back then, and not gotten it done. I think about the little life i destroyed, I was so selfish in thinking about my partners needs. Even tho he turned abusive and we ended a little over a year after I had it done, I know there a things I could have done about that. I always cry about the baby I never got to know, that never got to live. I know I would've had the support, but I was stupid. I think about it all the time, esp when I look at my kids. Nothing will ever take away that sadness in my heart.
This experience is definitely gonna haunt me til the day i die.:(
Well I had the hard job of calling my mum and her bf to tell them what was going on. My mum was speechless when I told her and gave the phone to her bf. Made me feel sad, I didn't want my mum to react that way :crying:. My dad had never really been in my life, but i had no one else to take me, I needed a parents consent, plus needed his medicare card so it didn't cost as much. He agreed, sadly that was one of the only times he was there for me. My bf couldn't even tell his parents what he needed the money for. He was ashamed, he was 19, I was 15, there was no way his parents would approve :angryfists:.
It took me many days, and many calling then hanging up to make an appointment. I finally did it, i made that awful appointment. My bf was happy, i thought i was too.
The day arrived and my dad took me, my sister and bf came too. There was protesters nearby which made it that much harder. Me and my dad went in. Had to fill out a bunch of papers and talk to a councilor. Got given a gown to change into, then into waiting room with about 6 other young girls, just watching daytime TV. I got called to go have an u/s. Got told I was 9+1weeks. Went back and waited.
Eventually the time came, and I got called in, I was so scared , I didn't know what was gona happen. But the nurses were nice, and the next thing I know I was put to sleep. Woke up, and felt ok, got given a drink and cookies. And a needle since Im a negative blood group. My dad, sister and bf got worried when an ambulance arrived, but it wasnt for me. Then my bf took me home.
I didn't think too much of it. Didn't really want to. Then I decided to do some research about it when I was 17, when i was with my now DP I didn't really have the accessibility to information when I had the abortion. What I found shocked me, and has made me severely regret what I had done. I never knew what happened, or what the process was. I have cried many nights since then. I REGRETTED what I had done. I wished that I could have the info I had now back then, and not gotten it done. I think about the little life i destroyed, I was so selfish in thinking about my partners needs. Even tho he turned abusive and we ended a little over a year after I had it done, I know there a things I could have done about that. I always cry about the baby I never got to know, that never got to live. I know I would've had the support, but I was stupid. I think about it all the time, esp when I look at my kids. Nothing will ever take away that sadness in my heart.
This experience is definitely gonna haunt me til the day i die.:(