bubbaboyandbump
03-03-2011, 12:01
I did a HPT yesterday and it came up positive. Another this morning.. also positive. :eek:
A bit of history..
I have an 8 month old DS who was very much unplanned (I was on the pill). At the time DP and I were living in different states and I ended up moving to be with him when I was 3 months pregnant. DP initially wanted an abortion but I decided against this as it is just something I don't think I could personally get over. Because I had moved states I left behind everyone I ever knew.. all my family and friends who I am very close to so I have very limited support here. I also gave up paid maternity leave which hurt financially as we are in massive debt (cars, credit cards etc).
More recently there have been some relationship issues.. A few weeks ago I found some text messages on his phone dating from mid 2010 to January this year between him and an ex girlfriend who lives overseas where he told her that we had broken up, he told her he loved her, basically talking as if they were in a relationship. I was going to move back home but he convinced me to stay for the sake of DS. I agreed to stay for a one month trial period with a number of conditions (many of which he still hasn't done).
DP and I are really not in a financial position or at a good point in our relationship so this whole idea terrifies me. And DS is still SO young and is going through a phase where he cries all the time. I am so exhausted and overwhelmed and the idea of having another bubba in 8 months.. argh!! I am also devastated as I wanted the next pregnancy to be planned so that when the positive came up my first emotion was excitement and happiness rather than more tears. I am dreading telling our families and friends who I'm sure will have negative things to say for all the above reasons.
I was hoping someone may have some similar experiences that ended up being positive or any advice for having two babies so close together. Anything really to get me feeling more positive about the whole thing and because at the moment I don't feel like I can and my heart is still breaking from all these messages to this other girl :no:
A bit of history..
I have an 8 month old DS who was very much unplanned (I was on the pill). At the time DP and I were living in different states and I ended up moving to be with him when I was 3 months pregnant. DP initially wanted an abortion but I decided against this as it is just something I don't think I could personally get over. Because I had moved states I left behind everyone I ever knew.. all my family and friends who I am very close to so I have very limited support here. I also gave up paid maternity leave which hurt financially as we are in massive debt (cars, credit cards etc).
More recently there have been some relationship issues.. A few weeks ago I found some text messages on his phone dating from mid 2010 to January this year between him and an ex girlfriend who lives overseas where he told her that we had broken up, he told her he loved her, basically talking as if they were in a relationship. I was going to move back home but he convinced me to stay for the sake of DS. I agreed to stay for a one month trial period with a number of conditions (many of which he still hasn't done).
DP and I are really not in a financial position or at a good point in our relationship so this whole idea terrifies me. And DS is still SO young and is going through a phase where he cries all the time. I am so exhausted and overwhelmed and the idea of having another bubba in 8 months.. argh!! I am also devastated as I wanted the next pregnancy to be planned so that when the positive came up my first emotion was excitement and happiness rather than more tears. I am dreading telling our families and friends who I'm sure will have negative things to say for all the above reasons.
I was hoping someone may have some similar experiences that ended up being positive or any advice for having two babies so close together. Anything really to get me feeling more positive about the whole thing and because at the moment I don't feel like I can and my heart is still breaking from all these messages to this other girl :no: