made2bAmummy
13-01-2011, 10:07
I've had my own wedding and portrait photography business for about 7 years now. I kept another p/t job also until I had DD just so that DH and I could get ahead and earn as much as possible. I've found that while running my own business from home is flexible in hours and enables me to care for my two little ones, I also find I am very lonely, lack motivation, procrastinate jobs, get scared of answering the phone sometimes, and get stressed out.
After 3 years of continuing this way we've decided its time for me to go back to 24 hours per week office work and just keep the photography as a hobby. This means no more advertising costs, phone rental, website costs etc. On paper it sounds great but I am nervous about it.
My office job is a walk in - walk out kind of role which is really appealing and the work itself is not too challenging, albeit constant.
I am so bad at keeping the "business" side of things running with my home business, but I absolutely adore the actual photography and the wonderful feelings I get after a challenging job well done (particularly a difficult Wedding which turns out well due to my hard work).
I am worried that I will miss the sense of self that I get from photographing, and feel like a nobody in going back to office work. I wonder if the stress of having my own business is worth the toll it takes on me and my family, beacuse it forms so much of my personal identity?
I wonder if I will be happier doing this office work because I will be less stressed, and I know that stress is a trigger for my depression....
At any rate I am due to return to the office on January 28th and wonder if I am making a big mistake or doing the best thing I could possibly do (there's no grey area here lol)
After 3 years of continuing this way we've decided its time for me to go back to 24 hours per week office work and just keep the photography as a hobby. This means no more advertising costs, phone rental, website costs etc. On paper it sounds great but I am nervous about it.
My office job is a walk in - walk out kind of role which is really appealing and the work itself is not too challenging, albeit constant.
I am so bad at keeping the "business" side of things running with my home business, but I absolutely adore the actual photography and the wonderful feelings I get after a challenging job well done (particularly a difficult Wedding which turns out well due to my hard work).
I am worried that I will miss the sense of self that I get from photographing, and feel like a nobody in going back to office work. I wonder if the stress of having my own business is worth the toll it takes on me and my family, beacuse it forms so much of my personal identity?
I wonder if I will be happier doing this office work because I will be less stressed, and I know that stress is a trigger for my depression....
At any rate I am due to return to the office on January 28th and wonder if I am making a big mistake or doing the best thing I could possibly do (there's no grey area here lol)