New to this - My story of the infertility road

[leebubs2bee]

hello all,

My husband and I have been trying for around 2 years to conceive and when we found out I had pcos we at first panicked but was assured we could get help using fertility drugs and I should get pregnant soon.

At first, we were dissappointed as I did not suffer with any of the major signs of pcos except a little acne and not being able to conceive of course.

After months of clomid, I wasn't even ovulating and then finally after 4 months on 3 tablets daily for 5 days, I ovulated with quite a high percentage. It was so exciting just to actually ovulate.

I was scheduled to go into hospital to see what was wrong but I decided to seek alternative medicine and used accupunture for a while. We also went and saw a natural specialists who put us on a cycle chart to start writing down my cyles which would eventually help us determine when I would ovulate to time intercourse. wow this was a huge emotional rollar coaster but once all the drugs got out of my system I lost weight as i was also on a Low GI diet. Not that I needed to loose weight but overall I felt much happier in myself - and my husband saw the change.

We were getting married in March 06 (Which was great I might add) so we decided to just enjoy all the lead up and each other for a while.
After we got back we thought maybe it would just happen but it didn't, bumma!

In April I decided to give one more month a go on clomid and if nothing then I had a doctors appointment booked for just after anyway.
Nothing did happen, so I persisted to go in for the operation I put off back in oct last year when I decided to go naturally.

It was diagnosed in May 06 that I in fact had both tubes that were blocked also. Talk about bad luck but rather than thinking if only.......I had gone in last Oct I'd know......I decided to just think "We'll atleast we know now and I have actually got explained infertlity which must be a good thing, right?

We started on the journey for possible IVF. After all the long awaited tests and councilling, we finally started this a few weeks back.
I had to begin the pill, how silly I thought. You spend half your life trying to avoid a pregnancy and half your life trying to figure out, why? Why me?
Back to the pill, it sounded funny. Why the pill? but it all then made sense. They have to take control of your cycle.

We started 'Syranel' spray on Tuesday which helps down regulate your cycle. Touch wood, no side effects as yet, just a small headache the first night. We have a doc appointment next Fri which will determine when I start the hormone injections by doing a blood test.

We are on the road to IVF and I am feeling anxious but excited. We are just being open minded and not too positive. I just believe things happen for reasons and I am not getting my hopes up anymore. just play it by ear. I have my days but generally I feel quite strong. Perhaps it's because we have already had such bad luck and it's now time for some good news.

Wish us luck, look forward in sharing some news and hopefully meeting some lovely people in the process of using this forum.

Take care and all of you out there feeling low because you have not as yet been blessed with a baby, be good always and good things can and will happen in good time.:kiss:

[india_654]

Hi Leesbubs2be,

Thanks for sharing your story. Funnily enough it sounds so similar to mine, I'm also recently married and had a op in October & have been tryingto conceive for the past 18 months. It is a hard journey, but it sounds like you are doing well.

I am in the beginning stages of IVF - getting ready for the first ultrasound and counselling etc.. before they put me on the pill. I know the pill is a funny one isn't it. I wish I could get back all that wasted money I spent on the pill over the past 10 years - you have to laugh.

I've also been having accupuncture and sorting out my health, which I have found to be really beneficial and am hoping it helps with the IVF process, but we'll see.
Good luck with everything. There is another thread above which many lovely ladies contribute too that you may find helpful and inspiring. I have.

India:)

Me 32
DH 32

[Cian's Mum]

HI leebubs2bee and welcome to Bub Hub ...

Wow , you have been going through a lot . Thank you for sharing your story .
You are already pretty far in the iVF treatment and I wish you all the best for your appointment Friday.

If you are interested , you are welcome to join the thread " First cycle in few days part 3 " , where you will meet lots of other women in your situation , who are going through the treatment or as been though it before ... I'm sure you will find heaps of support .

I'm wishing all the best and I hope you will let us know how you are going ....

Take care .

[Karizma]

Hello :wave: Welcome to bub hub...
Sending you lots and lots of luck your way tooo.......:fingerscrossed:

[jo-anne.36]

hellow leebubs2bee i would like to welcome you to this lovely forum and iam 1of the people who has not been blessed with a baby yet as iam in need of a egg donor and i would like to wish you and your husband all the very best on your marriaged in march this years and good luck on your baby journey lv jo-anne:hugs:

[leebubs2bee]

Hello India,

Firstly to every other lovely person who replied if you see that I have replied to India, I am so sorry if I have done this wrong. As I said this is very new to me and I am a bit confused how to reply. Can anyone assist on what I actually do?

Anyway hello India, (Once I know what I am doing I will reply as I want to get to know everyone)

Thanks for your reply,

It is nice to chat with people who are in similar situations to yourself. As I mentioned, I am currently on the syranel and just finished by last pill this morning. It's amazing how you've probably taken the pill your whole life and it became second nature but this time I have dreaded taking this. I guess only because I was paranoid if I forgot it and having another thing to remember. Not sure about you but as I have gotten older I forget all sorts of stuff. This syranel seems ok but I have had a few minor headaches and been a bit grumpy/tired!

Do you live in Australia? You mentioned there is another thread above, I am a bit lost....where is this? Gee I sound a bit vague don't I.

So tell me a bit about your interests? I just love shopping and catching up with friends. I used to be so sporty, playing netball, basketball, athletics and now I barely find time.

We have been in our new home for two years but we are just completing the garden. It's alot of fun selecting nice things for your home, it's gives you some kind of gratitude.

Nice chatting to you, it will be nice to get to know you. Good luck with your journey and fingers crossed for you both. We will probably go through the journey quite close together so looking forward to hearing more.

It does seem like ages getting to this stage doesn't it? They tell me 10 weeks roughly from day one of your period but everyone is different.

Wish us luck for Friday as hopefully we will know more about when we will start the dreaded hormones (Like we need more of those, hahahaha!!!)

Oh, do you get moody? How does your hubby cope? Let me know how your accupunture works.

Cheers more now and will chat soon. Take care sweety :fingerscrossed:


Hi Leesbubs2be,

Thanks for sharing your story. Funnily enough it sounds so similar to mine, I'm also recently married and had a op in October & have been tryingto conceive for the past 18 months. It is a hard journey, but it sounds like you are doing well.

I am in the beginning stages of IVF - getting ready for the first ultrasound and counselling etc.. before they put me on the pill. I know the pill is a funny one isn't it. I wish I could get back all that wasted money I spent on the pill over the past 10 years - you have to laugh.

I've also been having accupuncture and sorting out my health, which I have found to be really beneficial and am hoping it helps with the IVF process, but we'll see.
Good luck with everything. There is another thread above which many lovely ladies contribute too that you may find helpful and inspiring. I have.

India:)

Me 32
DH 32

[leebubs2bee]

Hello there,

Many thanks for the welcome,

This is great getting know everyone.

Sorry to hear your bad news, This is where I reflect back to all my friends as I tell them that I am not the only person who has problems.

They all feel sad for me and I just tell them don't be, just be happy and stay strong for me as I may need a shoulder to cry on occasionally.

I have great support. I guess it is hard to know what to say to you as not only do I not know you but I guess your always worried if you say the wrong thing.

I wanted to donate my eggs, when of course I find out where I am with them but even if we had heaps, I could'nt. Not because I don't want to we can't. My husband has 'Thelasymia' that probably not spelt right. He is asian and it's very common apparenty so we are not allowed.

Sweety, just keep being who you are and true to yourself and good things will happen. It can seem to take forever and no light at the end but I have faith in everyone and just know we will be mums soon.

Be open minded and as hard as it seems be positive but most of all happy with life. We may face many hurdles in life but being around love ones and enjoying every minute we have, is just one of those things we must grab with both hands hard. We can't afford stressing over things we have no control over, infertility. It sucks but keep in touch and I am sure we can help one another.

Keep smiling sweety. Chat soon :wave:

me 31
Hubby 34






hellow leebubs2bee i would like to welcome you to this lovely forum and iam 1of the people who has not been blessed with a baby yet as iam in need of a egg donor and i would like to wish you and your husband all the very best on your marriaged in march this years and good luck on your baby journey lv jo-anne:hugs:

[india_654]

Hi everyone:wave:

Leesbub2bee - Thanks for your post - I see you have found your way over to the First Cycle.. part 3 - as Beatrice invited you. As everyone says there is so much help and information there, I'm sure being in this forum will give you alot of comfort.

I haven't actually stated my treatment yet. I was hoping for this cycle but will start next as we have to get ultrasounds and counselling & bloodtests for my DH, then we are ready.
I'm a Melbourne person too - with Monash.
So I can't say how the drugs will effect me yet - I'm a bit concerned, but willjust have to wait and see. I hope you feel okay. I am prety forgetful but was thinking of getting myself a waterproof digital watch that I could wear 24/7 to set when I need to take the medicine. You may know better than me whether that would work?

My poor hubby has been through alot over the past 18 months with both us, but particularly me accepting that we can't conceive. i went through alot of anger and frustration, desprately gasping at solutions :banghead: (as I'm sure we all do) and wanting to adopt, foster etc..for a while.
but acupuncture for the past 6 months, has alos been like going to therapy, so that has been good. Its helped with alot of emotional stuff. I would definetly recommend it if you are interested. Quite a few ladies here seem to also recommend it . I can tell you more about what I do if you wnat to know.

Its great to have other things that help you to keep your mind off this. Its kind of all encompassing. I like gardening too - and especially love shopping like you! I'm sure everything will work out well for you soon. Just be positive and remember that modern medicine is on your side - and so is everyone here. GOOD LUCK on Friday!! . I'll see you over on the other thread :hugs:

Jo-anne36 - Good luck to you too in finding a donor.

Beatrice - thank you - I will keep hoping and believing. I felt my sisters baby kick yesterday which was lovely.

India

Me 32
DH 32

[leebubs2bee]

Hi there India,

Still finding my way through this forum but it's fun seeing what everyone is posting. The forum 3 is good but I must say I get a bit lost in there so prefer to send posts individually to people.

Last time we spoke you were waiting on the councilling. Have you started the treatment yet? If so. How's all your treatment going? Sorry I sound a bit nosey, ha!

Who is your doctor? I visit Monash in Richmond and my Dr is Bruce Downing. My nurse is Leonie and she is just lovely.
We started the injections on Sunday and have continued on the syranel. It's quite cute, my hubby quite likes seeing me jab myself I think. He has been very sweet and we are actually finding this all ok, so far touch wood.

As I have PCOS and have been through a fair bit already I believe that's why I may be coping. Don't get me wrong I still get moody and snappy but ha we are only human after all. That belief of mine keeps me sain and it works so i am sticking to it.

Had my first blood test with the IVF treatment that is, and I was not at the correct level so my dose was increased from 75 to 125. (If your not doing this yet, it may all sound weird) but you will soon know what I mean.
The only thing there that scares me is that on Monday when I am due for a scan/bloods to check the follicle growth for extraction I will be told the levels are still not high enough. This happened to me on Clomid.

My bloody insides are tough I think and even though they have to monitor me which I understand it's a longer process for me. That's ok as it will happen soon enough I am sure.

If all goes well, we should be going in sometime next week and we will only pray (I am not religious) I am just not looking at this in a way 'This is it' as that is one way of crushing your emotions. Expect less and if anything happens what a bonus. I know that does not sound very positive but at the end of the day you just have to do what ever works for yourself and knowone else.

Hey, love to hear what you've been up too....Chat soon....who knows we may even meet one day at Monash or for coffee.

Take care and chin up for all the success in your world sweety.:wave:

[india_654]

Hi Leesbub2bee
I haven't looked at this thread in ages sorry. My treatment has stalled again for the moment & have to have an op., so I have no news. I hope everything is going well with you on the injections. :fingerscrossed: Fingers crossed soon the big part will start and you will have some good luck. I hope so!! I know what you mean about staying calm and just trying not to hope too much.
Take care and I hope everything goes well for you and your DH:hugs:
India

[my babyemmy]

hi hun just wishing you best of luck and chat to you soon:fingerscrossed: :fingerscrossed: :hugs: