SomewhereOverTheRainbow
06-04-2010, 15:15
DD is 8mths old and BF, and about a month ago I returned to work part time (weekends and mondays). I'm a registered nurse, and did make it clear that I would only be able to work those days as evenings etc. I've been back for 3 weeks now and when I checked the roster I have 2 night duties on the next roster. :(
I spoke to my boss and she has told me that I have to work them, they are part of my contract there and we are short staffed etc... I'm also in charge for both of them so pretty sure I can't swap them because of our staffing issues.
I know this probably wouldn't be a big deal at all...but DD isn't sleeping through. In fact on a 'good' night she wakes 2 or 3 times...most nights lately are horrendous (teething I think maybe?) and she co-sleeps with us but only in my arms. The thought of being away from her for a night makes me want to cry..and I just don't think DH will cope without me there, and I don't think she will sleep without her boobies to cuddle.
At the moment on my evening shifts I am pumping milk once in the evening after my tea break but it's relatively easy because supply is low at that time of day. She fusses about taking an EBM bottle and won't drink much and is usually unsettled of an evening but I am home by 10:15pm so it's OK.
But I just can't imagine how she'll go for a whole night without feeding from me/snuggling next to me. I know it's silly but it has me in tears. Just a rant more than anything. :crying:
I hate my job sometimes. :gloomy:
I spoke to my boss and she has told me that I have to work them, they are part of my contract there and we are short staffed etc... I'm also in charge for both of them so pretty sure I can't swap them because of our staffing issues.
I know this probably wouldn't be a big deal at all...but DD isn't sleeping through. In fact on a 'good' night she wakes 2 or 3 times...most nights lately are horrendous (teething I think maybe?) and she co-sleeps with us but only in my arms. The thought of being away from her for a night makes me want to cry..and I just don't think DH will cope without me there, and I don't think she will sleep without her boobies to cuddle.
At the moment on my evening shifts I am pumping milk once in the evening after my tea break but it's relatively easy because supply is low at that time of day. She fusses about taking an EBM bottle and won't drink much and is usually unsettled of an evening but I am home by 10:15pm so it's OK.
But I just can't imagine how she'll go for a whole night without feeding from me/snuggling next to me. I know it's silly but it has me in tears. Just a rant more than anything. :crying:
I hate my job sometimes. :gloomy: