What to do?

[hannahgurl]

sorry i only recently joined bubhub as a doctor referred me.

On July 2nd 2009 i gave birth to my gorgeous son Kyle Adam Franklin he weighed 7lb 6oz. he was a perfectly healthy baby, i couldnt believe i created this gorgeous little boy i wantec to hold him forever and not let go.

he was 3 days old when his daddy came to pick us up from the hospital, finally we were a perfect family i have never been happier. but halfway home Kyle started crying and i tried everything to soothe him but with me in the passenger seat and him in the capsule in the back seat, i found it difficult. i asked Tyler (Kyle's dad) to pull over so i could put Kyle in the front just to see if that would settle him until we got home.
Tyler didnt like the idea and he said no way. but i persisited and he finally gave in.

we were about 15 minutes from home and i kept my eyes on my little man laying in my lap he looked so happy and peacful but before i knew it there was this real loud crash and i blacked out. i woke up to find myself laying on a stretcher with police and ambos all around me, i didnt have a clue what was happening but then i saw our car it was a mess! my first thought was where is Kyle? but then i looked over to see Tyler holding something and he was crying. i had never seen him cry in my life so i knew at that moment our baby was gone...

my little angel wasn't here for that long but the memories i shared with him will last forever.

after the accident i was still in shock Tyler was so helpful he would do everything for me but i changed into a different person i hated him, i blamed him for the crash i even told him he was the reason why Kyle wasn't with us anymore. but even through all that he stayed by my side and comforted me but i got out of control and he left.

i was stupid and pathetic, it wasnt his fault i should never have blamed him i should never have treated him like i did. he was my first love and i have had a few boyfriends after but i always have Tyler and Kyle on my mind.

i just recently joined Facebook to find Tyler and i did but it was then that i realised he is now engaged and seems to have moved on in his life. i think we need to talk i want to say sorry...

should i apologise and work things out with him or let him move on with his life?

please help it would be greatly appreciated :thumbsup:

sorry its so long...

[Hooves]

:hugs::hugs:

I am sorry you lost your little boy, and paid the ultimate price, for making a mistake.

I don't know the answer to your question.

But I couldn't read that and not say a thing.

I hope you find what you are looking for, and get to make your peace over this.

:hugs:

[~Temet Nosce~]

I don't have any words.. but your story broke my heart .. I think if it is something you need to do to move on from it all, then you should speak to him, I don't know what you should say though..:hugs:

[hannahgurl]

thank u so much. i just feel sooo horrible he stood by me no matter what n i pushed him away i shouldve been there 4 him i shouldnt have treated him the way i did he loved Kyle just as much as i did. he was Kyle's dad and i was a complete cow to him. :crying:

[crazymuma]

I'm so sorry for your loss - I can't even imagine what you have gone through and still continue to go through.

I think contacting him needs to be done for you to have some sort of closure but don't expect anything from him - if he is happy make your peace then walk away.

[hunnybunny]

So sorry for your loss :hugs:

Have you thought about writing a letter to Tyler with everything you wanted to say? Even if you dont actually send it to him it may be theraputic for you to get it all out.

[hannahgurl]

so we quickly talked on facebook (he accepted me as a friend lol) he just asked how things were, that he never thought he would get the chance to speak to me again, and that there isnt a second of a day where he dont think of Kyle

[JabberJaw]

:hugs::hugs::hugs:

[hannahgurl]

much thanks to all u guys! i appreciate all ur friendlyness