No more booby?? I'm Gunna Cry!!!

[lily81]

Today is my last day of breastfeeding. The boys are now 16 months old and way too big for me to keep feeding. I feel so sad, as I know this is the last time I am ever going to breastfeed. I don't think they will notice the difference very much, except for at night, but I am so teary at the moment. I guess every breastfeeding mother goes through this stage, I just keep thinking 'Wow, they are not babies any more!!" Even in a state of teariness I said to my husband, 'Lets have another baby', I think it was just that I am so emotional about this. However I am also extremely proud of myself for feeding them for this long. I survived the negative comments about my boobs being saggy when I finished (these mostly came from women who didn't breast feed mind you), the torturous hours of feeding and only one bout of mastitis (which I only had last week!! Ironic isn't it after 16 months!!). Anyway, if anyone would like to share their feelings I would much appreciate it.:crying:

[Manxie]

Lily81:wave: :hugs:

Congratulations on doing such a great job feeding your boys. I kinda know what you feeling I thought my DD was self weaning a few months back (she's almost 12months). I was absolutely devistated at the thought of it comming to an end and was a teary mess.

All I can say is yay for you for b/f and OMG twins I really do take my hat off to you (LOL) you are one great mumma.:hugs:

[jarrahsmumma]

Forgive me for being blunt but...why do you need to stop??

[lily81]

I need to stop because I work and have to start working longer hours now, also my back is killing me after tandem feeding for 16 months. Now your next question would be why don't I feed them one at a time, but having twins means double the feed time so it is just easier to feed them at the same time. Part of me too wants my body back in some way. That may sound sort of silly but I am sure other mums would understand where I am coming from. They are also quite big for their age so it is getting quite awkward to feed them. This is my problem though, I feel I have to explain myself if I do keep feeding or if I don't.

[bpato]

Hi

I know what you are going through. I finished up BF a month and a half ago. I second guessed my desciosin for a while, but then came to the conculsion that it was bst for me and DS. I was lucky though I got a lot of support through some people who I met here on bub hub that were comtimplainting the same.

Don't feel that you should have to justfiy your reasons for stopping. It is your decision and you know what is best for both yours boys and you.

Good Luck

:hugs: and :kiss:
Belinda

[cheezelkat]

aww, congrats on making it this far!

[lukaelmo]

16 months and twins?

You are my new personal hero. What an effort, and you should be very proud for putting it in... congratulations on such a commitment, and enjoy your new body and freedom.

[jarrahsmumma]

no judgement at all here, just curious.

sometimes people can feel pressured by family or society to stop because the bubs are too old for breastfeeding

if you are happy and your boys are happy that is what matters

i will also take the chance to congratulate you on BF twins, thats awesome. :thumbsup: :smiliedance: :smiliedance:

[kadownie]

Congratulations on feeding your bubs for so long!! I also have twins (23 months) and I am still breastfeeding. I know that this is such a huge and emotional decision- it's hard when circumstances change- especially when it means saying goodbye to our babies babyhood.

If you want to PM for a chat- don't hesitate to contact me- I know all about it!!

The only thing I want to add is- follow your heart!!

[kymmy]

:hugs:
Also wanted to say well done for feeding your boys. :thumbsup:

[lily81]

Thanks everyone for your support. I have lasted 1 1/2 days without feeding them but I was up at 3 o'clock this morning waking them up to feed. My breasts were so engorged it was not funny. I am taking tablets to dry my breast milk up but they do not seem to be working. I think maybe I will have to let them wean themselves. I feel really torn about giving in. One part of me is really disappointed that I couldn't do it but the other part of me enjoyed having them close to me and feeding. I tell you what though, I have not had any trouble with my breasts until now so I am not used to having any pain like this!!

[*Chels*]

Well done on making it this far!!I struggle feeding one squirmy wee man,no way could I handle 2 LOL!!
My son is starting to want less boob so I feel sad.Cant imagine what I will be like when he quits all together!
:hugs: to you

[Milliner]

I just want to say a big congratulations on BF twins!!!!!!! Well done!!! You must have had some tricky times!! :yelclap: :yelclap: :yelclap:

[tera]

:yelclap: Congratulations to both of you for BF twins. I am BF just one 23 month old and that is hard enough. Lily I know how you are feeling about giving up. I am in two minds about it myself. I want to but then I dont want too, because I know I definitely wont be able to do it again.

i tried it once and ended up waking her up to feed because i was hurting so much. Now though she comes and helps herself even when I'm trying to get work done:o She doesnt like being told she cant have them because then she sits in front of me saying "I want titties" "I need titties":eek: Some people dont like that around here but thats there problem.

Follow your heart. Maybe a compromise will make you feel better.

TC
Teresa

PS Send a happybirthday to your hubby

[AquaDevil78]

Hats off to you - twins, feeding at the same time and for 16 months.. WOW! Ur one hell of a mum :thumbsup::thumbsup:

I hope i can feed 1 for that long ;)

[Mother Duck]

Hello there

Oh so beautiful to read your thread!

I would feel exactly the same. The end of the most amazing era - very hard to go through.

On a few brighter notes, obviously you have been awesome to feed twins for this long so big pat on the back for you!

But best of all - at least you have known that amazing thing that it is to bf at all - some ladies never have that joy!

And irrespective of if you stop now or later, it will be hard at any time. You will inevitably have to stop at some point - so whatever you decide good luck with ending such a gorgeous and special thing as breastfeeding your bubba

Aside from all of this and just a suggestion for you - why don't you just feed them spasmodically - ease the discomfort a little and allow them to have a little bit of you time, a much smoother finish to a beautiful thing. Shouldn't have to be cold turkey

Anyway :ecomcity: Sorry :o Lots of :hugs: to you - Love Jess

[lily81]

Thankyou all for your support. I have successfully weaned the boys now, though I still break down in tears every now and then. Ethan was a little sick the other day and walked over to the lounge, tapped it with his cute little hand and said "Booby?". I bawled my eyes out!! I am happy with my decision though. We all seem to have a new found freedom and it is nice not to have to sit on the lounge for hours on end. As for being a 'supermum', well I don't know about that. I guess because I don't know any different (ie not having any babies before) I just did what I needed to. I know plenty of women with one baby out there who have had a harder time than me. But thankyou for the praise anyway.

[spiritedfamily]

I have found, that when its time to stop, you just know...and it always works out for me and the bub.....I seem to stop between 15 - 21mths.
You've done well to feed too baby's this long, thats the equavalent to 32 months...reallly...as you have been producing much more milk than a mother of one. Well done!!