Just need to get it all out

[aimsy]

At this moment, I don't know how I got here. Every day for months Ive thought could my life get any worse and every day it does. Now I don't know how I'm going to get it back to a life I want to live.
My DP is about to leave me, I'm 5 months pregnant with a baby I dont want, I have a 1 year old who I can't give everything he needs, he's not getting the life he deserves because I cant get my damn head straight about anything.
I've been so misserable for months, and its all jus spiraling out of control, I dont even know what has started it off, I just know whats making it worse now...
I don't have 1 friend in the whole world I can talk to. For over 3 weeks I havent had a single phone call from anyone. No, I havent rung them either, but i seriously would ring people and text all the time, always asking to do stuff and just to see what happens, i havent called anyone and no ones called me either. No ones called me about how am I going with the pregnancy, no ones said congratulations, no one cares. How did i get to a point in my life where no one cares about me? what have i done?
I actually think perhaps ive been so upset that i have no friends (which i relaly never have had any good friends, just aquantances) is whats led me to the depressive state which has driven away the only person whos relaly ever cared for me, and now hes going I really am alone, which makes me feel like dying. Not that thats what i want either.
I dont know what else to say now... I want it all off my chest but i cant think of what it all is
:no:

[purplepumpkins]

:hugs:
I am so sorry to hear about what is happening to you.
Maybe you should go to your doc to get some help, or even speak to a midwife at your hospital. I too have been very down this preg and I spoke to or rather broke down to a midwife the other day and she was fantastic, plus she is getting me more help as in speaking to social worker. So that I think would help just talking to someone face to face helps alot.
Take care lovey and I really do hope things improve for you very soon.
Leanne:wave:

[kayla Lilyz mum]

:hugs:Sorry to hear your feeling so down hun, if you want someone to talk to pm me ok, i have been through bad depression and some of things you said in your post i can totally relate too. Take care and I would also suggest talking to your midwife or doctor.

[Mathermy]

:( Sorry you are finding things tough right now :hugs::hugs:

[mylittlepeanut]

Hey aimsy - I think I know how you feel. PM me if you want to chatg more and we can swap emails or soemthing. xx

[mylittlepeanut]

Hey aimsy - I think I know how you feel. PM me if you want to chat more and we can swap emails or soemthing. xx

[TinkerBlueBelle]

Hi Aimsy,

:hugs:

How are you going now?

[javic]

I feel the same as you too. If you want to chat you can PM me as well. I hope the others have helped.