mrsgilchrist
22-09-2009, 09:35
Hi everybody! I wanted to share my story of how my kids came into my life.
The story begins 6 years ago when I was a mere 19 years of age. I had jus gotten engaged to my teenage sweetheart. When we got back from our stay away to celebrate this, he was tragically killed on a 4 wheeler motorbike at work on a farm, I was there as we lived on the farm, I heard screaming so I ran down the hill to find him lying helplessly unconscious on the ground, I tried and I tried to revive him I had him going for 30 mins before the ambo's got there then there wasn't much more anyone could do.
From this day I went into a state of shock taking very heavy pre-scribed medicines, way too many at a time then drinking on top of the medication almost everyday of my life. I lost alot of weight I looked and felt awful. I would drive my car home and hold the wheel in the direction of a tree and chicken out at the last second.
I became a very depressed very ill young woman, I ended up having to have therapy every week for queit sometime. I battled a hard and tourcherous legal battle for everything me and my deceased fiance had owned against his family. His own brother took the pornographic magazines from the toilet he used to read 2 days after his death, this made me very very angry that they weren't treating his passing with the respect he deserved.
However I won the legal battle, and was compensated for his passing a large sum of money. Still to this day it certainly does not repay what I have been through nor what I have lost no ammount would be able to do that. The day I got this news I cried and cried saying it isn't fair I dont want the money I want him back.
With this money I used it wisely and brought my 1st home and a reliable car. When I moved from my mums house after the accident into my own home I went down hill again falling through a spiral of alcohol drugs and too much partying trying to numb the pain I was feeling during every second of my existance.
I started to date a young man, he was friends with my older brother I had known him a while. Until one day he told me I was the sort of woman he could see himself marrying one day. The day after those words came out of his mouth he broke up with me, and I was told he had been cheating on me as well. This did not hurt much at all because I was still inlove with someone else who wasn't around anymore.
One time when I had gone out to the pubs with this man I was dating, he introduced me to this sweet and handsome young looking man. Everyone called him Gillie, all I remember from that night is he kept saying how he had to go home cause he was going finshin with his dad at 5 the next morning. But he stayed to have more drinks with me. While my then boyfriend toddled around the bar talking to all these different girls and having a good time me and Gillie sat and had a few drinks together, he was so amazingly funny.
Me and Gilly ended up best friends I told him about my past and everything in between I could not stand to be away from him and when we all went out when other girls were hanging off him my claws would instantly come out and I had no idea why!
One night we both had way too much to drink and we ended up together one night, after that night, things were still the same us being best friends but we could not keep or hands off each other.
He was still living with his parents up the road from where I was living, his parents moved out of town so he moved in with me for a bit, we had a huge disagreement I told him I was pregnant and I kicked him out so he went back to live with his muma nd dad out of town.
When I was about 30 weeks pregnant I have no idea how it happened he ended up back in my life telling me he wa sin love with me thats when I realised it all clicked all the jealousy of other women hating to be away from him...
We decided to get together at the end of my pregnancy just as i got used to the idea of being a single mum to a newborn, we made it work, he accepted the fact I could love him and someone else as well which was my fiancee who was taken from me to soon.
The night I found out I was pregnant I sat on my back stairs looking up at the stars thanking god and my fiancee for sending this little miracle in my tummy to me when they did, If they hadnt of I probably would have overdosed on drugs or had done serious harm to myself by now. She was a miracle, she was what saved me! I didnt touch anymore drugs, alcohol, gave up smoking and everything wrong for the little thing in my stomach that deserved to be nurtured and loved! My little miracle angel!
Gillie... Now known as Jason proposed to me not long after we had our 1st Lilly Faith, we then got married now 2 years ago when Lilly was almost 3. I was then 8 weeks pregnant with our 2nd then as well. We went on in a happy marriage built on trust friendship and love, and had our 2nd baby Ryley Brett Who was also born via c section at 10 lbs 13 oz 58cm long and 40 cm head. He is now 18 months old and I have just discovered I am now pregnant with my 3rd little angel.
Everyday that goes by I thank god and my fiancee for sending all of these things my way, I have been through so much, even before the accident I have had to deal with alot as a child as well more than a child should have to. I am so very grateful that my life is looking up someone upstairs is shining down on me and I know who it is!
thanks for reading my very long story about how my 2 beautiful heaven sent children came into my life!
The story begins 6 years ago when I was a mere 19 years of age. I had jus gotten engaged to my teenage sweetheart. When we got back from our stay away to celebrate this, he was tragically killed on a 4 wheeler motorbike at work on a farm, I was there as we lived on the farm, I heard screaming so I ran down the hill to find him lying helplessly unconscious on the ground, I tried and I tried to revive him I had him going for 30 mins before the ambo's got there then there wasn't much more anyone could do.
From this day I went into a state of shock taking very heavy pre-scribed medicines, way too many at a time then drinking on top of the medication almost everyday of my life. I lost alot of weight I looked and felt awful. I would drive my car home and hold the wheel in the direction of a tree and chicken out at the last second.
I became a very depressed very ill young woman, I ended up having to have therapy every week for queit sometime. I battled a hard and tourcherous legal battle for everything me and my deceased fiance had owned against his family. His own brother took the pornographic magazines from the toilet he used to read 2 days after his death, this made me very very angry that they weren't treating his passing with the respect he deserved.
However I won the legal battle, and was compensated for his passing a large sum of money. Still to this day it certainly does not repay what I have been through nor what I have lost no ammount would be able to do that. The day I got this news I cried and cried saying it isn't fair I dont want the money I want him back.
With this money I used it wisely and brought my 1st home and a reliable car. When I moved from my mums house after the accident into my own home I went down hill again falling through a spiral of alcohol drugs and too much partying trying to numb the pain I was feeling during every second of my existance.
I started to date a young man, he was friends with my older brother I had known him a while. Until one day he told me I was the sort of woman he could see himself marrying one day. The day after those words came out of his mouth he broke up with me, and I was told he had been cheating on me as well. This did not hurt much at all because I was still inlove with someone else who wasn't around anymore.
One time when I had gone out to the pubs with this man I was dating, he introduced me to this sweet and handsome young looking man. Everyone called him Gillie, all I remember from that night is he kept saying how he had to go home cause he was going finshin with his dad at 5 the next morning. But he stayed to have more drinks with me. While my then boyfriend toddled around the bar talking to all these different girls and having a good time me and Gillie sat and had a few drinks together, he was so amazingly funny.
Me and Gilly ended up best friends I told him about my past and everything in between I could not stand to be away from him and when we all went out when other girls were hanging off him my claws would instantly come out and I had no idea why!
One night we both had way too much to drink and we ended up together one night, after that night, things were still the same us being best friends but we could not keep or hands off each other.
He was still living with his parents up the road from where I was living, his parents moved out of town so he moved in with me for a bit, we had a huge disagreement I told him I was pregnant and I kicked him out so he went back to live with his muma nd dad out of town.
When I was about 30 weeks pregnant I have no idea how it happened he ended up back in my life telling me he wa sin love with me thats when I realised it all clicked all the jealousy of other women hating to be away from him...
We decided to get together at the end of my pregnancy just as i got used to the idea of being a single mum to a newborn, we made it work, he accepted the fact I could love him and someone else as well which was my fiancee who was taken from me to soon.
The night I found out I was pregnant I sat on my back stairs looking up at the stars thanking god and my fiancee for sending this little miracle in my tummy to me when they did, If they hadnt of I probably would have overdosed on drugs or had done serious harm to myself by now. She was a miracle, she was what saved me! I didnt touch anymore drugs, alcohol, gave up smoking and everything wrong for the little thing in my stomach that deserved to be nurtured and loved! My little miracle angel!
Gillie... Now known as Jason proposed to me not long after we had our 1st Lilly Faith, we then got married now 2 years ago when Lilly was almost 3. I was then 8 weeks pregnant with our 2nd then as well. We went on in a happy marriage built on trust friendship and love, and had our 2nd baby Ryley Brett Who was also born via c section at 10 lbs 13 oz 58cm long and 40 cm head. He is now 18 months old and I have just discovered I am now pregnant with my 3rd little angel.
Everyday that goes by I thank god and my fiancee for sending all of these things my way, I have been through so much, even before the accident I have had to deal with alot as a child as well more than a child should have to. I am so very grateful that my life is looking up someone upstairs is shining down on me and I know who it is!
thanks for reading my very long story about how my 2 beautiful heaven sent children came into my life!