Frustrated and over it

[lovingbeingamum]

Hi, I just need to vent here. I am overtired so it probably won't make any sense. I have endo, had DD1 after 2 laps and a fake drug-induced menopause, and then 6 months of trying. Now it has been since November, 8 months, and I am over it. DD1 is nearly 18 mths old and I bet endo has already taken over. I am starting to feel it.
These things should only happen to horrible people, like those who would abuse/neglect/kill their children, or are drug addicts. I feel like screaming!!! :hissy:
I don't want more surgery, or to do IVF, and adoption in Australia is more like a sick joke than a viable alternative. I'd love to foster, but couldn't deal with handing a child over to one of the types of parents I mentioned above, who should be the one whose body doesn't ever want to co-operate.
I know I should be thankful to have a beautiful baby girl already, but I want to giver her a brother or sister that is close in age, and time is not on my side anyway.
Does anyone else ever feel this way, even for a short time?
Anyway tomorrow is another day. I think I need to go to bed now.

[Waiting4OurAngel]

Sorry to hear your having such a hard time at the moment :hugs:

I do know how you feel though ... we have been trying now for about 15 months and lately it has really started to take a toll!

Your right ... its not fair that people out there who abuse and neglect their kids can have them without even thinking about it and others (like us) have such a difficult time with it.

Theres nothing comforting that I can really say - I try to think of something every day for my own sanity but haven't come up with anything yet! :)

Feel free to pm me if you ever feel the need to vent / talk about it.

Hope today is a better day.

[ringneck]

I know how you feel i feel like it frequently lately after ttc for 20months with nothing. It's all part of the roller coaster i hope you get your bfp soon.

[lovingbeingamum]

Today is another day, still tired, and crampy. The hormones probably caused the teary last night, but still feel annoyed whenever I read the paper to hear people are not treasuring their little angels, whist so many who would are being denied theirs. If I got to play God for a day, I'd make things much more fair! Oh well, we'll just try again next month, and then if still nothing, go visit the specialist again...:fingerscrossed:

[dreamtobeamummy]

I also know exactly how you feel.... after trying for 18 Months I think almost every day 'jjust give up' but how can I do that when I am trying ot help my own body by swallowing herbs twice a day? :(

I also have Endo (quite riddled with it)... had a Lap couple of years ago.... earlier this year I started getting the pain, resorting to drugs when AF was here because it was so painful.. I then started Acupuncture and guess what? not one bit of pain at all :yelclap: So just a suggestion.. Have you thought about doing acupuncture? It can help with the stress levels also, and I enjoy going to my appointments because I leave and think to myself 'we are one step closer!'

Sorry I rambled.. But I really can relate to you.. So if you ever want to chat Just PM me :hugs:

Take Care and Chin up hun :flowerz:

[lovingbeingamum]

Thanks to all of you for your advice, I think I will investigate the acupuncture and keep trying for a few more months, and see how I go. Good luck to all of you who are also not currently having any luck. :babydust2: