What's wrong with me :(

[Kimberlei83]

I thought id write here & see if anyone else has ever felt the way i feel right now. I feel horrible so didn't want to speak to anyone about it in fear of being judged :(
My son was born on the 11th, the birth was horrific.
Anyways to get to the point i don't know why but i keep thinking such horrible things. I get cranky with my little boy and am starting to wish i didnt have him. :no:
I know its wrong & everyone keeps saying it gets better hang in there this jus makes me angry.
God i feel so terrible i feel guilty knowing that at the moment id seriously consider giving him away.
Will these feelings go away :-(

[elvis07]

Hi,

I feel the same as you when I just gave birth my son ( around 1-2 months) lucky! I got my mum to help me with cooking, shopping, talking and looking after baby when you feel bad and upset, angry with baby.....don't know why? ( I just walk out of the room) so you need someone to take care you in this moment.

Wish all the best for you :thumbsup:

[Kimberlei83]

Thanks.. All my family live in Sydney. None of them have seen him yet.
Its so hard i jus keep crying and when i look @ him i get so angry cause i don't want him.
Gosh.. well thanks again for replying :hugs:

[Leeny]

:hugs: You're not alone Kimberlei.. Many women here feel like you do after a traumatic birth, you're not a bad person :hugs:

It is important that you go and talk to your GP about it though. It's much healthier to go and talk to someone about it then go on feeling the way you do.. You could even be suffering from postnatal depression or post traumatic stress disorder. I think you need to go and talk to someone, perhaps a GP may even recommend some counseling for you?

Do you have someone (partner, even a friend etc) that could watch your little one so you're able to have some "me time" when you need it? Feeling the way you feel doesn't make you a bad person or a bad mother, but you need to take care of your mental health as well so that it doesn't become an issue for you and your little guy..

I think it's also important to remember.. If you do find yourself getting angry with him for anything, it's far better to put him somewhere safe like his cot or bassinet until you've calmed down and can get your head together, rather then do something you would regret later. He'll be ok crying by himself if you need to, but theres always a possibility he wouldn't be if you find yourself getting angry.. Know what I mean? :hugs:

I really hope you're able to speak to someone and sort through the problems your having, it must not be nice to feel the way you do :no: Good luck with it :):hugs:

[workin'mumof2]

it took me months to stop blamming ruby for "her" birth. it took me 6months to love her.

dont feel bad,. talk to someone. it does help

take all the time you need:hugs::hugs:

[CrankyAndTired]

Just want to give you big hugs :hugs:

Be kind to yourself, accept your feelings for now and go talk to your GP.. It will get better :hugs::hugs::hugs:

[SassyMummy]

See your GP. It's not unusual for mothers to feel this way, but it's important that you seek help as soon as possible. You might feel like a b*tch feeling the way you do, but know that you're not alone. Your GP will be able to either help you himself, or refer you to someone that can help you.

Don't be too ashamed to go seek help... it really is an important step and it's worth it.

[iMischa]

the best thing u can do is talk to your gp, its very important if your feeling this way.

it's not your fault, it doesnt make u a bad person, sometimes things happen to us that affect us in a way we have no control over *big hugs* i suffered from post natal depression when my baby was 5 months and i started to feel exactly how u felt, like i wish i didnt have him...i let those feelings consume me for around 8 weeks before i got help, and once i did, the overwhelming feeling of love for him came back and i still feel guilty i ever felt that way and that i didnt get help sooner..

i wish u all the best, if u ever need to just talk u can private message me anytime.