zimby
14-06-2009, 08:15
Imagine you decided to go for your Dream Job, one thats fulfilling and meaningful and would last a lifetime, a job you have been working towards your whole life. You decide to go for it but you dont hear anything back so you try again and you still dont hear back, you think well thats ok you have heard it can take a while to get this job, everyone wants it, its popular right....so you keep trying....and you keep trying...and you keep trying but you never hear anything back. Its been 6 months so your getting a little bit frustrated but still not worried coz you have to work for what you want so you keep trying in good spirits. Meanwhile your current job is getting a bit annoying your thinking that your new life will start soon and you wont be at your current job long so it dosnt matter.
A year goes by and you dont understand, you think maybe theres something your not doing right so you go and check with a professional and they give you an exam, and you pass with flying colours, they say no your doing everything right so you keep trying....and you keep trying, but you still dont hear anything, not a single thing. Your current job is even worse now coz you really cant be bothered you think its a waste of time but you cant leave coz your new life is going to start just next month.
Its been 18 months now so you think you need to check with the professionals again they said you 'could' have the job, but your still waiting. They give you another exam, quite a lot in fact, and get this YOU have to pay for the exams. They still say everything is fine dont worry so you keep trying and you still dont hear anything, eventually even more time passes and this time they say maybe you should see the Experts. Ok so you go and see the experts and you pay even more money and have even more exams, but the exams start to get a bit more invasive and a bit more costly, but you cant leave your current job coz you need the money to pay for all the exams for your 'new job'.
Meanwhile loads of other people are given the job that YOU want, even people that dont even want it, but thats not fair you say you were trying first and your more ready and you have prepared more, but its no good they still wont give you the job. So now your really frustrated and angry and confused, there is no second best so you cant go in a different direction you have to still focus on your Dream Job. But you cant plan anything, your life is on hold, that great holiday you want you cant plan too far in advance 'just in case' you eat well 'just in case' you cant leave your current job 'just in case' you actually cant do much at all except keep trying and waiting. So now its been almost 3 years and you cant believe its actually been that long. You think, have I wasted this time, what else could I have been doing, damn it I should have booked that holiday 3 years ago, I should have left my current job 2 years ago and got one I liked more to make this easier. How long do I keep doing this, should I give up. The problem is you cant give up coz your partner wants this Dream Job too but only you can do it, so if you give up then he is forced to give up to, and lets be honest you dont really want to give up yourself anyway so you just keep trying..and trying..and waiting and paying. But now the world seems darker coz you cant see when this is going to end, it might never end and then what do we do, when do you say enough is enough, or do you never say that, When do I leave my current job and retrain even it means less money? When do I book that mega holiday? When do I do something for myself and be selfish? When do we do anything but this? And so it continues..except my 'Dream Job' is Motherhood and people say.....“Gosh your moody its nothing just get over it”
A year goes by and you dont understand, you think maybe theres something your not doing right so you go and check with a professional and they give you an exam, and you pass with flying colours, they say no your doing everything right so you keep trying....and you keep trying, but you still dont hear anything, not a single thing. Your current job is even worse now coz you really cant be bothered you think its a waste of time but you cant leave coz your new life is going to start just next month.
Its been 18 months now so you think you need to check with the professionals again they said you 'could' have the job, but your still waiting. They give you another exam, quite a lot in fact, and get this YOU have to pay for the exams. They still say everything is fine dont worry so you keep trying and you still dont hear anything, eventually even more time passes and this time they say maybe you should see the Experts. Ok so you go and see the experts and you pay even more money and have even more exams, but the exams start to get a bit more invasive and a bit more costly, but you cant leave your current job coz you need the money to pay for all the exams for your 'new job'.
Meanwhile loads of other people are given the job that YOU want, even people that dont even want it, but thats not fair you say you were trying first and your more ready and you have prepared more, but its no good they still wont give you the job. So now your really frustrated and angry and confused, there is no second best so you cant go in a different direction you have to still focus on your Dream Job. But you cant plan anything, your life is on hold, that great holiday you want you cant plan too far in advance 'just in case' you eat well 'just in case' you cant leave your current job 'just in case' you actually cant do much at all except keep trying and waiting. So now its been almost 3 years and you cant believe its actually been that long. You think, have I wasted this time, what else could I have been doing, damn it I should have booked that holiday 3 years ago, I should have left my current job 2 years ago and got one I liked more to make this easier. How long do I keep doing this, should I give up. The problem is you cant give up coz your partner wants this Dream Job too but only you can do it, so if you give up then he is forced to give up to, and lets be honest you dont really want to give up yourself anyway so you just keep trying..and trying..and waiting and paying. But now the world seems darker coz you cant see when this is going to end, it might never end and then what do we do, when do you say enough is enough, or do you never say that, When do I leave my current job and retrain even it means less money? When do I book that mega holiday? When do I do something for myself and be selfish? When do we do anything but this? And so it continues..except my 'Dream Job' is Motherhood and people say.....“Gosh your moody its nothing just get over it”