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leisurly
16-06-2006, 08:24 PM
I've had quite a journey in my life, many ups and downs.

As a child I was too tall too skinny too spotty, but home was a battlefield and that meant survival, so the too tall too skinny and too spotty didn't really get a look in except for a bit of bad posture.

The death of my mum when I was 15 was devastating, but she loved me so much that it has kept with me all my life. The next 25 yrs have been posted else where. So I won't repeat myself. Except the next chapter starts where the other ended. I was knocked down on a crossing and 5 yrs of my life were wiped off never to be regained and in reality much more was lost because of the loss of having children.

My court case finished, I treated my best friend to a trip to New York as a thank you (I lived in London), I booked it sept 3rd 2001 we all know what happened on the 11th and we flew on the 4th October. On return i applied for a job, several, got three interviews and got one job. The new boss was charming and keen, a bit worried I was, especially as I hadn't worked for 18 mths. Well the short version is, I walked into interview and the man was smitted and still is. Love florished and life turned around, he knew immediately that I wanted children, as I want to give them the the love my mum gave to me

We have tried and tried and still no luck, as we both have fertility problems we are hoping that we get accepted on an embryo or egg donor programme, I see the consultant on Monday so I hoping for good news. My mother lived in brisbane as a teenager, I've found my grandparents on the electoral register of 1958, they lived behind the xxxx brewery, my aunt tells me my mum loved Brisbane, I'm hoping that Brisbane brings me the same joy as it did my mum.

I'm finding that I can write my feelings down easily but I also find this is a very new place to be, and that actually posting such personal information is both helpful and stressful

L

Mum2AandJ
16-06-2006, 08:44 PM
I couldnt even imagine what you are going through, But I can offer you support and a hug... :hugs: hope you can find support that you need and an egg donor... good luck :fingerscrossed:

SuperWoman
16-06-2006, 09:08 PM
You have been through alot and I just want to wish you the best of luck with your journey and pray that you will find an egg donor who will make your wishes come true.:hugs: :hugs: :hugs: :hugs:

sarahstarfish
17-06-2006, 08:14 AM
Hey L

The human spirit is a wonder, to go through so much and still retain a sense of humour, and the will to just keep trying and trying. I look forward to following your journey and hope some of the best bits of your life story are just around the corner.

Love

Cindy

mauve
17-06-2006, 09:27 AM
The first half of your life was such a battle. But, it sounds as though the second half is looking better. Finding love where you weren't expecting it and tracking down your grandparents. Your own bub would certainly make it close to perfect.
I wish you luck!

Melanie&Lucky
17-06-2006, 08:27 PM
Hi Leisurly :wave:

Sending you a big bear ((((HUG))). Your story really touched me and it certainly does sound like you have travelled the rocky road. Good luck with your search for an ED. I may be doing the same as you very soon, so I hope that you and I will be able to realise our dreams of having a baby and a family very very soon. :fingerscrossed: Infertilty is such a struggle and an experience that exposes such raw feelings and emotions close to your heart and soul.

Good luck.

PMS
18-06-2006, 11:57 AM
Hello Leisurly. Thankyou so much for having the courage to share your story with us. It is stories like yours and others on here that gave me the courage make the Egg Donor journey.
I wish you all the best in finding your donor angel; you truly deserve to!
I too look forward to following your journey. :yelclap:

:hugs: Peta:hugs:

leisurly
26-06-2006, 06:12 PM
Hi Peta

Thank you so much for your kind words. last week i saw a specialist who was so lovely and made me feel really positive that this could happen. The whole visit with the coordinators and the nurse was so good, I just wish I'd looked in to changing specialists over a year ago.

I am now on the egg and embryo donor list, I've held back putting out an ad as I'm finding I still need to read alot more of the threads and unfortunately with the neck and shoulder probelms i have following being knocked down, I'm finding typing and computer work really difficult, so only manage short sperts. We are trying to get me set up to be more comfortable, but it is trial and error.

I feel very humble after reading the ups and downs that the donors have had to face, life can be so very complicated.

Leisurly

Melanie&Lucky
29-06-2006, 09:12 PM
Hello Leisurly

It is definately good to have others to talk to who understand the struggles and ups and downs. I find that I can actually express myself better when I write (or type) it out and many times I have done this...you know....just got on the computer, had my :barf: , printed it out, then tossed it out !! One way of getting it off my chest !!! Seriously, it is certainly good to have others to share with.

Take care of yourself! Have a nice weekend ! :)