Having a down day :(

[my*lil*munchkin]

Hi all

Sorry I just have to vent.... Today was my first day back at work after 3 1/2 weeks off. I had such a crappy day :( I really didn't want to go back to work in the first place (who does after being on holidays!!) but then I found out that there's a whole lot of **** going on and I'm just over it!! :hair:

I have been feeling 'unsettled' at work for the past 6 months or so, but the thought of being UTD has kept me going.

We have been TTC for almost 3 mths now, which I know is not really that long, but feels like forever. All the who-ha at work just makes it even harder, becuase if I was UTD then I would know I've only got X amount of months left....

I have already :crying: about 6 times since I got home from work..... (Secrectly hoping that it's a sign im pg! LOL)

Sorry for the long vent, just had to get it out of my system before DH gets home from footy training and I take it out on him :laughing:

Thanks for reading if you managed to get this far!

[Electric Boogaloo]

:hugs: I totally get where you're coming from. There are some days that I feel like that at work. We have been ttc since November 2008 and we have had 2 early losses. Originally I thought I'd be going on maternity leave halfway through this year, which was kind of keeping me going, but seeing as we are still ttc, that ain't gonna happen....

It's good to just get it out of your system on bubhub -- and leave your poor DH alone!!:laughing:

[anemone]

Hi lotsahugs. Sending you lotsahugs! :hugs:

I can completely relate to the uncertainty of TTC timing and how that affects work. Im in a similar place - not knowing whether to start s/thing new as hopefully Ill be pg very soon - but then "why put my life on hold" says another part of me.

Hope things get better at work soon, AND that you get a BFP very sooon too!

[babylove81]

Lotsahugs,

I feel exactly the same way love... I love what I do, but my workplace is just full of political bull****! I am a conveyancer in a law firm, and some days I just think it isn't worth it. DH loves his job and he is a director, so he has something to look forward to @ work, whereas I don't - ultimately I want to be a mummy and not work! DH just tells me that its not forever, and just to 'hang' in there - he is right in some ways, but I agree with you, on those really bad days, it just gets too much and the fact that you know if you were pregnant you would have an end date in sight and right now you don't, which makes it all the harder.

I don't know if this has helped, but please know that you are not alone and that we are all in this together...

Lots and lots of :babydust2: to you, and remember when you do get that :bfp:, how much sweeter it will be...

babylove81 :smiliedance:

[BabyJoy]

I think you're in need of lots of hugs! :hugs: :D

I know exactly how you feel. When I started TTC #2, I thought it would take no time at all. (It only took 3 months with DD.)
I put my hand up to work over christmas 2008 believing that I would be on maternity leave at that time, so I'd be off anyway. Time went by, I still wasn't pregnant, and so I had to work Christmas! :hissy:

Now 17 months have past and I'm still trying my best to stay positive that it will happen eventually.

Try not to lose hope, just think of work as a way to save up extra money for the baby!

[my*lil*munchkin]

Thank you all for your lovely words and support! I feel so much better after reading everyones' replies :) I am glad that I'm not the only one feeling this way and that others can relate.

I can't believe the support that ppl show here on bubhub. It's amazing. This sounds silly, but I feel like I have "online friends" that want to share a little piece of my life.... LOL

Thanks again ladies!

:babydust2: to you all!
xox