alcohol

[meme]

feeling bad about how much i had to drink last night. i don't drink all the time, i can happilly take it or leave it most of the time, don't ever drink and drive, can be satisfied with one glass or a soft drink at some events ....and yet i still think i drink unhealthily....like the nights i do enjoy a drink i over indulge to the point of feeling crappy the next day. physically yuk and also emotionally yuk.

why do i still do it?

i know i also like a drink when i am feeling like i need stress relief like at the end of a busy day, or when i am feeling angry/upset, i tihnk if i have a glass of wine i will be happier and less likely to growl at the kids. stupid reasoning because the next mroning i will be horrible when i feel yukko.

not sure why i am posting this on the forum. i think i am at the point where i really don't want to use alcohol in an unhealthy way anymore. 2-3 drinks occasionally should be enough. right!?

maybe i just need to stop totally for a while....eeek, why is that such a scary thought...

[wocket]

It's not that scary to stop, you seem worried about how streeed you'll be feeling without it...but you said yourself that you feel crappy the next day. imagine what you'll fell like without feeling crappy every morning. Seems that you could be using it as an emotional need rather than anything else. Some heavy drinkiners do it as a form of subconcious self punishment because the know that they'll feel crappy later.

Think of it as a challenge to yourself, a game. perhaps you can reward yourself with something. for example try not to touch alcohol for a month and if you succeed spend that saved money on a spa treatment/massage/new clothes. When you go out order fizzy drinks/juice. if you're worried about what your friends will think tell them the truth or that you're having a mixer.

[jolenje]

feeling bad about how much i had to drink last night. i don't drink all the time, i can happilly take it or leave it most of the time, don't ever drink and drive, can be satisfied with one glass or a soft drink at some events ....and yet i still think i drink unhealthily....like the nights i do enjoy a drink i over indulge to the point of feeling crappy the next day. physically yuk and also emotionally yuk.

why do i still do it?

i know i also like a drink when i am feeling like i need stress relief like at the end of a busy day, or when i am feeling angry/upset, i tihnk if i have a glass of wine i will be happier and less likely to growl at the kids. stupid reasoning because the next mroning i will be horrible when i feel yukko.

not sure why i am posting this on the forum. i think i am at the point where i really don't want to use alcohol in an unhealthy way anymore. 2-3 drinks occasionally should be enough. right!?

maybe i just need to stop totally for a while....eeek, why is that such a scary thought...

Meme, your post could have been written by me...!
I was going really well a couple of months back, only drinking on set nights, and only having 2 glasses...than the wheels really fell off... The hardest thing is my brother committed suicide 4 weeks ago, and this has been "the roughest patch", so very hard to relax after something like that. I have started seeing a counsellor again (I have been on & off most of adulthood) for various family issues due to an abused childhood), so hopefully she can help motivate me, I hate myself the next day, and feel like such a lousy mother, even though, I try to not do it around my 9 month old girl.

Maybe we can motivate each other!

I really want to get going again on my exercise/healthy eating/alcohol free regime I was doing before my brothers death turned my world upside down...
We have my partners brothers wedding in July, and I really want to look good in a fabulous new frock!!! 8 weeks, so now is a perfect time to get focussed on that goal I guess!!!

I need some moral support ladies:gloomy:...