lambforus
11-01-2009, 13:05
:wave:Hi
I have recently posted my advertisement for a donor egg (To Someone Special).
We are located in Brisbane, but would pay for all expenses of a donor to travel and stay for the duration of the cycle if you are from interstate.
Not that I expected anything to happen right away, but I thought I should give you all a little bit of information on my journey so far, that way we can get to know one another.
Let me introduce myself to you all. My name is Lauren, and I am 29 years old, my husband is 34.
We have been trying unsuccessfully for 4 years to conceive each time there has been no success. I have been told that my eggs are not good. I guess I should start at the
beginning.
I have always known I would have trouble concieving naturally, don't ask me how I knew, somehting within me just told me. From the time I was sexually active I never had an "accident" so to speak, and always felt this twinge this niggling feeling in the back of my mind. Being young I put it out of my mind.
We have done 12 IVF cycles in the past 3 years. I am not sure if this is alot of not, compared to so people I have heard about, but we each need to do what is right for us.
My first 6 cycles were at one prominent IVF clinic here in Brisbane. I saw two specialists. The first was a grouch. Can I say that?
Becuase of my age back then, I am 29 now, he felt I was too young and didn't take me seriously. He ran all the usual tests and did his laparoscopies. he found nothing wrong. We tried AI 4 times. After this I told him something was wrong and I wanted him to go further, he did 2 rounds of IVF, with transfer at day 3 for both. No pregnancy.
He kept telling me I was too young and that it would happen eventually, I kept telling him something was not right. I didn't go back. I decided to see another specialist within the same clinic.
Right away, I felt more relaxed and more positive. We did another bout of AI, this time 6 times.
Although he agreed I was young, he told me I knew my body and if I felt something wasn't right, it didn't matter what all the tests in the world said. He wanted to hold off on IVF for as long as possible because he as he said "didn't want to put me through the trauma".
We made a plan and stuck to it for 2 years, after this I told him no more, time for IVF. We did 4 cycles, each transfered back at day 3.
For some reason he never wanted to go to day 5.
Eventually, I was getting sick of not being able to expore different options with transfer times, hormones etc, so I went in search for my own remedies.
At that clinic, on each cycle I got 5 eggs, never any more and never any less. It didn't matter what level of hormone I was on or if I was using nasal spray or an antagonist, always 5.
I begun to see a chinese herbalist and accupuncturist. Immediately, I changed my diet, went on a wide variety of horrible herbs and attened fortnightly accupuncture.
Now what I am about to tell you is really embarrassing, so please don't tell anyone. Swear
Good
In January 2008 this year, I saw a psychic.
Don't laugh. Ok, laugh, I know, what was I thinking. But, remember, I said I would do whatever it takes!
I had a reading on IVF, I was told that I would be having 2 pregnancies resulting in 3 children. WOO HOO.
I was also told that I would be pregnant by March (2008) and welcoming me first at Christmas (2008).
Well, what do you know, March came and went with no pregnancy, Christmas has come and gone and I still don't have a baby. I was such a fool.
Anyway, back to reality.
I asked around and was told by my accupuncturist to try a private clinic in Brisbane with a young Doctor who had trained O/S. I booked an appointment and within 1 week was starting my next cycle.
There was no sugar coated outcomes, it was black and white.
My first cycle, what do you know, I got 5 eggs. All fertilised. Turns out I don't have any trouble with that.
They all reached 4-6 cells on day 2-3 but after that they all either stopped dividing or started to fragment. My Doctor was pretty up front and told me that there was a problem with my eggs and was willing to continue trying but I would perhaps one day have to consider finding a donor egg.
The reason he was so upfront, was becuase as he said, he wanted no illusions for me, he knew that I would be accepting of it and wanted to give me all the time in the world to prepare myself.
It didn't matter what combination we did, be it hormone with nasal spray or antagonist, it was always 5 eggs. The higher the hormone the more it remained at 5.
On my 5th cycle with this clinic, we tried lowering the level of hormone and made the cycle as natural as possible. I was over the moon. I didn;t care to outcome (I really did) but I just couldn't believe it, for once I had broken number 5, I had 10 eggs.
7 fertilised.
By day 3, I hadn't heard from the clinic, and because I didn't want to jinx anything I didn't call, just waited for day 5. Late in the afternoon on day 4, the embrologist called.
Right away I knew it was not good.
Once again, the eggs were fragmenting and had not developed any further than 4 cells.
She was crossing her fingers as were the whole clinic but it didn't look good.
I went in anyway, but no transfer. It was then I knew.
It didn't matter the combination of hormones, it didn't matter the acupuncture, the chinese herbs, the keineisiogy, the aura readings, the flower essences, the psychics, and whatever else I had challenged myself with. I had dud eggs.
That was one of the easiest realities I had ever had to face. Even now as I write this, I can not remember a single cycle where I didn't at some point know that my eggs didn't want me to reproduce for their own reason.
That is what is the hardest part, not knowing why. I can accept everything else, it is just that one thing. I hate not knowing.
I now know what I have to do, and am more than happy with it.
So, that is me so far. Thank you for allowing me to be apart of this wonderful site.
I hope to hear from you all soon.
LAMB.
P.S I did say that I would tell you what that means. Well, it is a combination of the first intital of me and my husband plus what we hope to achieve.
If anyone is interested in finding out more or would perhaps like to assist me by donating their eggs or may know on someone who is willing and able.
They can contact Jenny or Rachel at Life Fertility Clinic in Brisbane on 07 3606 3131. Quote the reference lamb.
Again thank you. :flowerz:
At the end of the day, I know that my husband and I will make terrific parent's and can provide a stable home and financial environment for a child. We have already built our house with love with now need to fill it with the noise of love that only comes from children. Because we own our business we are able to be more flexible with our time and are able to spend the time needed away from work to be with our child without the need for any sacrafices.
I have recently posted my advertisement for a donor egg (To Someone Special).
We are located in Brisbane, but would pay for all expenses of a donor to travel and stay for the duration of the cycle if you are from interstate.
Not that I expected anything to happen right away, but I thought I should give you all a little bit of information on my journey so far, that way we can get to know one another.
Let me introduce myself to you all. My name is Lauren, and I am 29 years old, my husband is 34.
We have been trying unsuccessfully for 4 years to conceive each time there has been no success. I have been told that my eggs are not good. I guess I should start at the
beginning.
I have always known I would have trouble concieving naturally, don't ask me how I knew, somehting within me just told me. From the time I was sexually active I never had an "accident" so to speak, and always felt this twinge this niggling feeling in the back of my mind. Being young I put it out of my mind.
We have done 12 IVF cycles in the past 3 years. I am not sure if this is alot of not, compared to so people I have heard about, but we each need to do what is right for us.
My first 6 cycles were at one prominent IVF clinic here in Brisbane. I saw two specialists. The first was a grouch. Can I say that?
Becuase of my age back then, I am 29 now, he felt I was too young and didn't take me seriously. He ran all the usual tests and did his laparoscopies. he found nothing wrong. We tried AI 4 times. After this I told him something was wrong and I wanted him to go further, he did 2 rounds of IVF, with transfer at day 3 for both. No pregnancy.
He kept telling me I was too young and that it would happen eventually, I kept telling him something was not right. I didn't go back. I decided to see another specialist within the same clinic.
Right away, I felt more relaxed and more positive. We did another bout of AI, this time 6 times.
Although he agreed I was young, he told me I knew my body and if I felt something wasn't right, it didn't matter what all the tests in the world said. He wanted to hold off on IVF for as long as possible because he as he said "didn't want to put me through the trauma".
We made a plan and stuck to it for 2 years, after this I told him no more, time for IVF. We did 4 cycles, each transfered back at day 3.
For some reason he never wanted to go to day 5.
Eventually, I was getting sick of not being able to expore different options with transfer times, hormones etc, so I went in search for my own remedies.
At that clinic, on each cycle I got 5 eggs, never any more and never any less. It didn't matter what level of hormone I was on or if I was using nasal spray or an antagonist, always 5.
I begun to see a chinese herbalist and accupuncturist. Immediately, I changed my diet, went on a wide variety of horrible herbs and attened fortnightly accupuncture.
Now what I am about to tell you is really embarrassing, so please don't tell anyone. Swear
Good
In January 2008 this year, I saw a psychic.
Don't laugh. Ok, laugh, I know, what was I thinking. But, remember, I said I would do whatever it takes!
I had a reading on IVF, I was told that I would be having 2 pregnancies resulting in 3 children. WOO HOO.
I was also told that I would be pregnant by March (2008) and welcoming me first at Christmas (2008).
Well, what do you know, March came and went with no pregnancy, Christmas has come and gone and I still don't have a baby. I was such a fool.
Anyway, back to reality.
I asked around and was told by my accupuncturist to try a private clinic in Brisbane with a young Doctor who had trained O/S. I booked an appointment and within 1 week was starting my next cycle.
There was no sugar coated outcomes, it was black and white.
My first cycle, what do you know, I got 5 eggs. All fertilised. Turns out I don't have any trouble with that.
They all reached 4-6 cells on day 2-3 but after that they all either stopped dividing or started to fragment. My Doctor was pretty up front and told me that there was a problem with my eggs and was willing to continue trying but I would perhaps one day have to consider finding a donor egg.
The reason he was so upfront, was becuase as he said, he wanted no illusions for me, he knew that I would be accepting of it and wanted to give me all the time in the world to prepare myself.
It didn't matter what combination we did, be it hormone with nasal spray or antagonist, it was always 5 eggs. The higher the hormone the more it remained at 5.
On my 5th cycle with this clinic, we tried lowering the level of hormone and made the cycle as natural as possible. I was over the moon. I didn;t care to outcome (I really did) but I just couldn't believe it, for once I had broken number 5, I had 10 eggs.
7 fertilised.
By day 3, I hadn't heard from the clinic, and because I didn't want to jinx anything I didn't call, just waited for day 5. Late in the afternoon on day 4, the embrologist called.
Right away I knew it was not good.
Once again, the eggs were fragmenting and had not developed any further than 4 cells.
She was crossing her fingers as were the whole clinic but it didn't look good.
I went in anyway, but no transfer. It was then I knew.
It didn't matter the combination of hormones, it didn't matter the acupuncture, the chinese herbs, the keineisiogy, the aura readings, the flower essences, the psychics, and whatever else I had challenged myself with. I had dud eggs.
That was one of the easiest realities I had ever had to face. Even now as I write this, I can not remember a single cycle where I didn't at some point know that my eggs didn't want me to reproduce for their own reason.
That is what is the hardest part, not knowing why. I can accept everything else, it is just that one thing. I hate not knowing.
I now know what I have to do, and am more than happy with it.
So, that is me so far. Thank you for allowing me to be apart of this wonderful site.
I hope to hear from you all soon.
LAMB.
P.S I did say that I would tell you what that means. Well, it is a combination of the first intital of me and my husband plus what we hope to achieve.
If anyone is interested in finding out more or would perhaps like to assist me by donating their eggs or may know on someone who is willing and able.
They can contact Jenny or Rachel at Life Fertility Clinic in Brisbane on 07 3606 3131. Quote the reference lamb.
Again thank you. :flowerz:
At the end of the day, I know that my husband and I will make terrific parent's and can provide a stable home and financial environment for a child. We have already built our house with love with now need to fill it with the noise of love that only comes from children. Because we own our business we are able to be more flexible with our time and are able to spend the time needed away from work to be with our child without the need for any sacrafices.