need to vent

[lovinmum]

Hi all you wonderful ladies,

Thankyou so much for all of your replies and i do appologise for being a bit scattered and being on and off the site!!
I have had a very hard couple of months, well actually this year isn't going to plan so far. Apart from loosing bub i have had my 17month old daughter in PMH with pnemonia, then i caught it. I just got rid of it and woke up at 2am this morn with a major migrain:eek:
Sorry to be so down but my partner is at work and dont get me wrong he is absolutley my rock but i feel soooo yuck.
I have had so much on, i am working from home, studying being a stay at home mum, partner and trying to keep myself ok but it doesnt seem to be working for me:no:
How do you find balance sometimes when the odds just seem to be against you???
i do feel a bit gulity for complaining because i am so lucky, i have a fantastic partner who we have grown so much closer through everything that has come our way so far this year, i have beautiful friends who have been there for me through everything (thats when you know your true friends, when regardless they are there) thank heavens for them. And i have a loving and supportive family. So why do i still feel so lost?
Once again i do appologise i dont like being negative but i just needed to vent how i felt....so thanks for listening/reading;)
take care to all and thanks for being there
Love megs xoxo

[sunnyflower]

awwww.big hugs.i hope u feel better soon.

[loopi1]

Megs, I hear you mate, I haven't been thru want you have in the past few months but I have been thru my own hardships. Tho slightly different to yours the feelings are much the same. I think I am drowning sometimes and have no way out, even with all the support I get and advise from people off BH that sinking feeling just wont go away.

I know this seems like a cliche and a bit heartless but all I do is think that there are people out there that are worse off than me. I know how horrible am I, but it works, I can turn on the news or go to the dicovery/ci channels on foxtel and watch some of the shows on there and see the deverstation that is happening around the world and consider myself lucky. I may be hitting hard times but I do have people around me, a roof over our heads and we do get to eat everyday.

Your loss is deverstating and something you just can't get over in a day, give yourself some time Meg, I even suggest a councilor.

[Mum&bubs]

Aww i really hope you feel better soon & i wish you all the best :hugs:

[damien's mum]

I feel sorry that you are feeling the way you are, I dont know what you have been thru, or are going thru, but i do know, no matter how bad life may seem, we always seems to still be here, my motto is, its not happing today, you cant do anything about it, so dont worry. Easy said i know, but when u can learn to do it, it really works. I dont mind listening to people vent, i think its very healthy.. I understand having a loving caring husband, but sometimes, he is too soft, i need the hardness, of having my butt kicked into line.. Anytime u want to chat, pm or add me to msn, Spankerz@hotmail.com :) :wave:

[Niki]

i hope everything is goin beta for u now:fingerscrossed:

[cutiegirl]

Hi Megs Well It Sounds Like U Have Been Through Alot And Being Sick To And If Your Child Is Sick To Very Draining Maybe Going To The Doctors Having Check Up Or Someone To Confide In Is What You Might Need I To Feel So Overwhelmed Sometimes Always Busy And No Time To Just Relax And Have Time For Yourself Which I Am Starting To Change

[bearsmummy]

hi megs im mel....hope your feeling better... feel free to add me to your msn... my partner works away and im always on here chatting. take care :hugs:

[lovinmum]

hi everyone,
thanks to all for your replies they are a big help. Things are looking a lot brighter now and i am happy to say that we are prego's again. :thumbsup: Im a bit worried or scared that i will loose bub again but i know thats only normal.
i hope everyone is doing well and staying out of trouble:smiliedance:

I would love to chat Mel i will pm you, look forward to a good old yarn!!:)