whiteynow
01-11-2008, 09:32
Im so angry and upset. I duno how to deal with it. Dp and i had been fighting heaps so i packed some bags and took of to my mums with our 15m old daughter. at first he was really nasty cause its all my fault because i took her away from him but then he couldnt see that a man who doesnt come home for 4 nights is not going to keep your family at home waiting.
So anyway i told him i wasnt leaving him i just needed space for maybe a week or a few weeks. So the next few days turned into very very nasty threats and his decision it was over between us and he only had contact with me once a day to call to come see his daughter.
So that happened for 3 days then i was told to get F**ked and that he isnt coming to see DD anymore and wen she is older she will understand why he done it and will realise the person i am.?!
So then on thursday i went out with some gf's (which also have kids) to go dress shopping because its my bday next wed and we are going out next weekend to celebrate.
All day while im out i get nasty calls from im coming to smash up ur mums place, to im burning you ute, to ive been cheating on u with one of ur closest mates for ages.
Then after i just kept saying grow up n hung up numours times i get this call to say sorry n he never has cheated he is just angry and wants me to feel the pain that hes feeling cause he loves me and DD and didnt want us to leave and wants us home but also did agree that we need time and maybe a few weeks of me out of the house might be a good idea.
That afternoon he came over and spent time with me and DD and it was a great after noon, he even took DD while i went to get some groceries done.
Then friday was great we were chatting on phone about alot of things happening around us (it was just like old times) Then we went out just me and him to have alone time while DD was with my mum.
It all went pear shaped. After i was told he didnt like wat i was wearing and he will get me a gym membership i started feeling down, he couldnt hellp but to pick at me.
We ended up arguing and he made me call a taxi and all, wen the taxi nearly arrived he was going out so i demanded he take me home and he finally unlocked the door. Then i get a huge lecture on way home on how i look like a **** and pathetic wen i go out now im a mother, i should have been doing it b4 i was a mother (mind you i didnt b4 because i was at home with him and his son which was 1m wen we got together and at the time i had been 18 for 3 months)
I am now sitting here questioning myself to if im a good mother or not because i wanna go out now. Its not like i go out all the time. And as for next week its my freaking birthday so i have every right to!!!
Then at about 1am i get this msg saying stay out of my life n i wrecked his life n he isnt going to have nothing to do with DD because of me (mind u i want her to know her dad ive never stopped him from seeing her if anything i call him and push for him to spend time with her) and he is changing his number so this is the final good bye!!!!
Im so upset its like my whole life has been thrown away from me. Everything but my furniture is still at the house and he wont bring it to me on MY ute and he threatened if i take the ute he will damage the house which my name is on the lease, then i will be in debt!!! I can not get my name off the lease unless he signs a new one and he told me he is purposely not going to sign one. So im stuck between a rock and a hard place and ive lost the man ive loved for 4 years. Now im left with raising DD alone and im already not coping. She calls for daddy all the time and wen i say i love you she calls out daddy and wen i ask if she loves daddy she says yes....
How do i move on?????
So anyway i told him i wasnt leaving him i just needed space for maybe a week or a few weeks. So the next few days turned into very very nasty threats and his decision it was over between us and he only had contact with me once a day to call to come see his daughter.
So that happened for 3 days then i was told to get F**ked and that he isnt coming to see DD anymore and wen she is older she will understand why he done it and will realise the person i am.?!
So then on thursday i went out with some gf's (which also have kids) to go dress shopping because its my bday next wed and we are going out next weekend to celebrate.
All day while im out i get nasty calls from im coming to smash up ur mums place, to im burning you ute, to ive been cheating on u with one of ur closest mates for ages.
Then after i just kept saying grow up n hung up numours times i get this call to say sorry n he never has cheated he is just angry and wants me to feel the pain that hes feeling cause he loves me and DD and didnt want us to leave and wants us home but also did agree that we need time and maybe a few weeks of me out of the house might be a good idea.
That afternoon he came over and spent time with me and DD and it was a great after noon, he even took DD while i went to get some groceries done.
Then friday was great we were chatting on phone about alot of things happening around us (it was just like old times) Then we went out just me and him to have alone time while DD was with my mum.
It all went pear shaped. After i was told he didnt like wat i was wearing and he will get me a gym membership i started feeling down, he couldnt hellp but to pick at me.
We ended up arguing and he made me call a taxi and all, wen the taxi nearly arrived he was going out so i demanded he take me home and he finally unlocked the door. Then i get a huge lecture on way home on how i look like a **** and pathetic wen i go out now im a mother, i should have been doing it b4 i was a mother (mind you i didnt b4 because i was at home with him and his son which was 1m wen we got together and at the time i had been 18 for 3 months)
I am now sitting here questioning myself to if im a good mother or not because i wanna go out now. Its not like i go out all the time. And as for next week its my freaking birthday so i have every right to!!!
Then at about 1am i get this msg saying stay out of my life n i wrecked his life n he isnt going to have nothing to do with DD because of me (mind u i want her to know her dad ive never stopped him from seeing her if anything i call him and push for him to spend time with her) and he is changing his number so this is the final good bye!!!!
Im so upset its like my whole life has been thrown away from me. Everything but my furniture is still at the house and he wont bring it to me on MY ute and he threatened if i take the ute he will damage the house which my name is on the lease, then i will be in debt!!! I can not get my name off the lease unless he signs a new one and he told me he is purposely not going to sign one. So im stuck between a rock and a hard place and ive lost the man ive loved for 4 years. Now im left with raising DD alone and im already not coping. She calls for daddy all the time and wen i say i love you she calls out daddy and wen i ask if she loves daddy she says yes....
How do i move on?????