Found out I had a Misscarriage

[BB78]

Didn't know where to put this so feel free to move....
The following is a page from my TTC journal... I am putting it in this thread as I have no idea what to think/feel atm I am so shocked numb and would like some guidence.... advice....
sorry.


Have had a rough day today, today was the day I saw my doctor and get all the results back that I have been having since May (its taken me this long to see her, she has been booked out since May)
She told me that I did infact tell me I had a M/C in may.
I sat there in shock.
I would of been 3-4wks pregnant... when I lost it.
My sister actualy said "Well thats not exactly a baby is it, so it doesn't count":crying:

Does it count?????

My hubby has been crying all evening & I have been on & off I am more stunned then anything.
I had a thread in may as I was sure I was preg i had all the signs & was throwing up daily... when what I thowt was AF arrived it wasnt. I didnt have the usual signs I get.
When it happed I had this massive bloody lump that I thought was a blood clot & it was just this large lump & stuff that was in the toilet & now I know it was my baby:crying: ... not light bleeding as I usually get with start of AF. so that madde me iffy.
And what my hubby & I only knew I had a very light bfp I took no notice of it as I could only see it in certain light......so just thought it was faulty & took no notice.

I am so stupid I ignored the signs... I am so dumb I don't know what to think...
Even the doc said "well at least you have children already" .... why do ppl say that??????? As if that makes it ok?? Less hurtful....

She also told me I have 'clusters of small cysts' on my ovaries, and my hormone levels are abnormal...
they want to do more tests & I am booked in to see a top melbourne Gyno.

I asked can I still TTC and she said yes if I wish to then she can't see why not as everything looks fine, she said the clusters shouldnt stop me falling pregnant..... I dont know what to think atm............

Sorry I am rambling....

[Mum2Bug]

:hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs:

[Mum2Bella]

it doesnt make it easier having children

bloody hell,what is your sister thinking it is so a baby,its our baby that was growing inside of us.

the gyno at the hospital kept referring to my baby as a product of conception,i was screaming inside its my baby that is 9 weeks young


it does get easy,surrond yourself with loving family n friends

[gizmoduckus]

I am so sorry that you are going through this.

I know how hard it is to hear some of the comments that people say after you have a M/C. They are trying to make you feel better but that don't realize how hurtful there comments can be. I got a lot of 'It is better that it happened now rather than later'. :confused: Why is it better? I still suffered from a loss and so did you.

Please take care of yourself and allow yourself to grieve. It does count and there are many things that you can do like plant a tree or release a balloon to commemorate your loss.

I know it is hard but I promise that it does easier. I know there is not much that I can say at the moment to make you feel better but I couldn't help but try. :hugs:

[jag5000]

:hugs:

I have no helpful words.. just wanted to share my support though, and say I am so sorry for your loss

[BB78]

Thank you :hugs::hugs:

[BB78]

I feel lost .... numb .... like I shouldnt even be on bubhub... I dont know how to take it ...
like my sister said it wasnt "formed" it was only weeks old.... I don't know.... do I count this??
was it a baby? or a "It"?:crying:

I feel so lost.:crying:


Sorry ... I am going to bed I think... I dont know what to do.:crying:

[chunkydunks]

:hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs:

[lavenderpegasus]

You should be on BUBHUB, this amung other things is what we are all here for.
You were pregnant and your loss was your baby. Yes it was early, but your sister should be supportive of how you are feeling. It doesn't help anyone to remove the worthyness of your feelings...
I wouldn't think it would be easier as you already have children as now I have a baby and I think a m/c would be harder now I know the love on my little man.

Please stay on Bubhub and lean on us hubbers as hard as you need to. Of course if you feel you just can't cope please speak to your Dr about how you are feeling. No one here can replace your Dr...

lp in wa

[Tenille]

I'm really sorry about your loss. I know this isn't the same thing but i lost my 17 yr old cousin in april. Even if you were just a few weeks along, you still had a baby inside you and you would have bonded with bubz. Every loss is hard and the pain may never go away fully, but it will ease and you will smile and enjoy life again i promise. For now just keep your chin up. All the best :hugs:

[Mamalicious]

:hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs:

It was a baby sweetie, your baby. Your sister is being stupid, a baby is a baby. :hugs:

[dillydAlly]

:hugs:I feel like butting in and giving you a hug :hugs:

I know how you may be feeling. I had what was thought to be a misscarrrige last week. :no: I know the pain you are feeling as no one has validated my feelings either. You and your body deserve this time to grieve. Any pregnancy is still just that and you owe it to yourself to lean on everyone here for support....

It is tough though. I remember telling one of the girls at work (who has children) said "oh well it's not that bad it woudln't have been a really baby" :confused: I felt like smacking her right across the mouth.....

I hope you can find solice!!!! Please don't leave bub hub!!!!! You deserve to be here. If not only to speak to people who understand what you are going through...

Ally

[ness27]

:hugs: BB for your little angel baby

[BB78]

mama::hugs: ty hun luv ya girrl.
Aj::hugs:I am sorry for your loss too hun, I wont be leaving bubhub, i was just meaning last night..:hugs:
ness::hugs:thank u hun




I didnt get any sleep last night, I kept thinking about things I feel stupid for crying over what would of been a spec ..... spec & goo.... I dunno.
I just feel blagh & :confused:

dont know how I should feel..think..

[melbryan]

Why are some people so insensitive, there is no need for it.
:hugs: to you I am the same age as you have 3 boys I would be devastated if I lost this one. Sorry no real comforting words. Just lots of hugs!!!:hugs:

[trixiebelle17]

Hey BB :hugs: :hugs:

I'm sure your sister and doctor where trying to make you feel better but they just didnt get what its like to miscarry... i have to admit those kind of thoughts had previously run through my head when ppl had told me about a M/C (not that i was actually said them out loud) but i developed a whole different level of insight the first day i started ttc and i now understand a M/C, no matter how early is a loss! You put your heart and soul into ttc trying to not get your hopes up, and then your finally allowed to only to have it all ripped away from you again.

It's normal to grieve over something like this, and your situation is even more complex by having thought u were pregnant, being proved wrong by AF, and then finding out you were right along... what an emotional journey even to that point!

We are all here for u BB. Make sure to do soemthing special for yourself over the next few days. :hugs:

[DramaQueen]

I don't have any words of advice to offer you, but I just couldn't NOT post and had to give you some :hugs::hugs:

I'm so sorry for your loss. :hugs:

[neekynoo]

I'm so sorry BB :hugs:. You have every right to feel how you are feeling. You need to grieve as it's the only way to help you move forward and you need to allow yourself as much time for that as you need. I'm sorry your sister doesn't understand but on the positive you seem to have a loving hubby who is there for you as much as you are for him and that is wonderful. Sending lots of loving thoughts your way :hugs::goodvibes::hugs:

[jdsmummy]

Hi im so sorry for your loss :hugs:
I had a miscarrige last week. I was 5 weeks and started having bleeding. My doc sent for a scan and they could not see the pregnancy. My levels went from 61 (which is quite low) to 8 then to 3. So even though I was 5 weeks the pregnancy probably didnt develop and I didnt lose a large clot. But just like you it was a pregnancy and could of developed into a baby so yes it does count.
I have a ds and although this does not make it easier I find that he keeps me strong and next time Im pg I know my angel will be looking down on us.
Heres lots of :hugs: :hugs: :hugs:
Feel free to pm mw if you want to chat

[cocobambino]

Oh sweetheart:hugs:

I wonderd why I hadnt seen you on msn much as of late, Im so sorry this happened to you.

I have been through a miscarriage Feb 07 and I know just how you must feel and im sorry you have to go through that but your not alone Im always here if you need to talk.

We will get our :bfp: very soon I can feel it

:hugs::hugs:

[bumblytumbly]

I just wanted to say that I am so sorry for your loss:hugs::hugs: and please don't feel silly for crying over the loss of your baby. It counts because it counts to you. Don't listen to what people say...they have no idea. I had a m/c in June and was only 5 weeks and my FIL basically said the same thing. Just know everyone is here for you.

[branjie]

I really feel for you. People often don't know what to say, and with the intention of making you feel better, or trying to look on the bright side, they can say some pretty hurtful things.

Hugs.

[3blueones]

Im so sorry to hear whats happened.
I really dont think it makes a difference how long you have been pregnant, the second you do the test and find out your pregnant, its your baby - not just a cluster of cells. By the end of the first day you find out, you dream of what this special little person is going to feel like in your arms, and how special they will be to u and your family. So I think its more than OK to be sad, angry and grieve for this special little angel baby.:hugs:

[cmd'smum]

:hugs::hugs: sorry for your loss :(

Please try to ignore those hurtful insensitive comments! I find that those comments are usually made by people who hav'nt experienced a m/c.

The way you feel is very valid. Ofcurse it was your baby, of course you are allowed to gieve, it is healthy to!

It does get easier, you arn't alone! there are lots of women on here who have also eperienced a m/c and they are sooo supportive :yes:

good luck TTC :hugs:

[BB78]

Thank You Court :hugs:


Thanks everyone for all your messages of support you are all wonderful.:hugs:

I thought a way of aknowledging the loss was to sponser a child so I have done that. :)
I rang childfund.org.au
and they are sending out my joining kit to sponser a lil girl:goodvibes:

I have also made donation to child charitys. It has made me feel better.. is that stupid?

[cmd'smum]

Thank You Court :hugs:


Thanks everyone for all your messages of support you are all wonderful.:hugs:

I thought a way of aknowledging the loss was to sponser a child so I have done that. :)
I rang childfund.org.au
and they are sending out my joining kit to sponser a lil girl:goodvibes:

I have also made donation to child charitys. It has made me feel better.. is that stupid?

not at all stupid! It's a lovely thing to do! :yes: Best of all, you feel really good about it!:thumbsup:

[BB78]

Ty cmd :hugs:


I feel bad for still TTC next month, it just seems wrong now.
Hubby still wants to... i dont know... should I?
I feel like I am being 'out with the old, in with the new' so to speak IYKWIM?

I feel so :confused:

[cmd'smum]

Ty cmd :hugs:


I feel bad for still TTC next month, it just seems wrong now.
Hubby still wants to... i dont know... should I?
I feel like I am being 'out with the old, in with the new' so to speak IYKWIM?

I feel so :confused:

Hun, only you will know when you are ready to TTc again :yes:

don't think you are being "out with the old and in with the new" :no: You will always remember your angel no matter what and as someone who has had a miscarriage herself, no other baby can replace the one you have lost!:hugs:

[BB78]

Thank You cmd:hugs:

[cmd'smum]

welcome, :):hugs:

[specksmum]

I'm sorry for your loss

[springbride]

Big Big :hugs: Huni.

I don't know what its like to lose a baby, but I know it would feel terrible. I hope your ok, and you take all the time you need to start TTC again. You are such a strong beautiful woman Beverley:flowerz: and I know your beautiful bub is on its way to you:hugs:, you just got to wait a lil longer.

Take care and take it easy xxx

[cmd'smum]

How you feeling today BB78?

[Jezabel]

:hugs: Im very sorry for your loss