Can't stop crying

[gizmoduckus]

I hope all of this makes sense and doesn't sound like a whole lot of babble.

I guess I will need to give you the background story.

We get along really well with my BIL and his wife. We lived next door to each other for 5 years. When I got pregnant with DS they were really happy for us and a week before I gave birth they announced that they were also expecting. It has been great having my DS and my niece so close in age.

A few days after my DS's 1st birthday, we found out that I was pregnant again. I ended up having a missed miscarriage in October and ever since then we have been TTC again with no luck.

I would have been due in around 2 weeks time and last night I found out that my SIL is pregnant again. It would of been exactly the same thing happening again if I didn't have the miscarriage.

I am heartbroken and not handling it too well. I have been crying all night, so much so that my eyes are puffy. I just don't know if I can cope anymore. I am happy for them but at the same time I am miserable. How do I get through this?

Sorry for the ramble but I have no one else to talk to except my DH.

I don't even know if I have this in the right section.

[bubbleyblossom]

First of all millions of these for you:hugs:. I have no idea what you are feeling, so cant offer you any advice. I am so sorry you are feeling this way hun! I wish there was something I could say or do to make it all better. Please take some more of these :hugs: and I really hope things improve for you

[SorenLorensen]

:hugs:
exact thing happend to us (well it was close family friends not family) our DDs are 6 months apart (my DD is the eldest) and play together all the time.
i had a m/c and not to long after she fell pregnant, my heart sank, not because she was pregnant but becasue i wasn't and i wanted my baby that i had lost, i wanted to rewind time and get my baby back somehow.
i don't know what i can say to help you, i remember it hurting so much and i kept it all in so i delt with it with in myself (so not the best thing to do, but im like that...im bottle with the lid screwed on damn tight).

if you need to talk feel free to PM me, as i said i know what you are going through. :hugs:

[readytotry]

:hugs: Gizmoduckus..

Just remember that our bodies are amazing, AMAZING things, and your body knew something probably wasn't right with your angel in heaven, so it did what it had to do...
Your next little darling im sure isn't to far off, and I know what I am saying probably won't heal any pain you are feeling, but just try to stay positive. The power of thought is incredible so just invisage your next baby in your arms, and think positive and it will happen for you. So sorry to hear you are down, I hope you feel a lot better real soon and wish you the best for whats to come :hugs:

And have a roll in some of this too!
:babydust2::babydust2::babydust2::babydust2:

[Jender]

Gizmo

We are already conversing through the miscarriage threads but wanted to send you some :hugs::hugs:

Pain is what it is - you just have to feel it. Having a good cry can be very good for you. Try and see if it will clense you. If you feel it is getting the better of you, maybe find a counsellor to talk to you. The main thing - your feelings are natural and you are permitted to feel like you do. But sometimes it can help to talk to someone neutral about it

Anyway - lots of :hugs:. I am here if you need to PM me

[gizmoduckus]

Thanks for your replies.

I am feeling a lot better tonight after gorging myself on lots of junk food (I will behave myself tomorrow).

We have swimming lessons tomorrow morning with my SIL so hopefully I can compose myself when I am around them tomorrow.

I am happy for them and I can't wait to be an aunty again but as SorenLorenson said, I am more upset that I am not pregnant.

I just have to tell myself that I will get through this, I will get through this.