TTC, anyone else OVER IT!?

[Veruca Salt]

Hi all,

I'm new to the forum. We've been TTC for what feels like forever now and to be really honest I'm absolutely OVER IT!!

I'm sick of charting my cycle.

I'm sick of trying to hold on to the first pee of the morning (which is the only reason I've woken up) so I can take my BBT.

I'm sick of adjusting my social life 'just in case' I'm pregnant when I'm always not.

I'm sick of putting off plans because 'I might be pregnant by then'.

I'm sick of going to see doctors and gynos.

I'm really just over the whole thing and right now if I found out I wasn't going to be able to fall pregnant I think I'd almost be relieved because at least then all this trying would be over.

:hair:

Sorry to be so negative on my first post but really just needed to say all that.

Anyone else feel the same way?

Veruca xx

[HelenHasTwins]

I am over it from time to time, but it doesn't last long....I usually give myself a big kick up the bum and get on with things....:D

I am not ready to give up yet :yes:

[MoonstoneMumma]

It is frustrating, but very much worth it in the end. I have been on fert meds, done all the charting, mucus checking, peeing and all that kinda stuff and i am taking a break from it. last time when i gave up trying for ds thats when i fell pg. i dont think i am some one who can 'plan' to fall pg as i am a stress head.

so in short yes, yes i am over it, so im not doing it any more! lol

[Veruca Salt]

Frustrating.....Oh yeah!

What I hate most is feeling like I'm letting people down. My DH, my parents and in-laws.

They are all so keen for me to fall pregnant and yet I feel like I'm doing everything I can and it's just not happening.

I think at first I was so scared of becoming pregnant I wasn't so disappointed to get my period but now it's just frustrating me.

I had a laparoscopy last week to check if previously diagnosed endo was gone and found out one of my fallopian tubes is completely blocked, probably due to the endo. Then endo is all gone though.

We're down to start IVF in a few months.

I'm keen to just have a break and relax for this time but DH isn't.

What do you do to keep yourself motivated?

[giveitago]

I'm over it and we've only been 'officially' trying since October.

I have so much respect for the dedication and determination of those that have been doing this for years. Would love to find where their secret stash of hope and optimism is hidden.

I gave temping the flick this month, just don't need another component to analyse, which is always worse during the 2ww.

And I'm sick of my activities being determined by whether or not I am in the 2WW.

I have an event this weekend, and bugger it I'm having a drink. I have no interest in getting rolling drunk, but I am having a drink. I refuse to continue to let this stop everything in my life atm.


grrrrr, thanks for the thread, nice to have a bit of a vent.

[megaminz]

well as per Giags (giveitago) post me and the dh have been trying since October.

after AF and leading up to af I am okay....then in that last week I start to droop and get quite miserable. last cycle was bad cause I got a false faint positive on a test which was probably an early evap line but it the meantime you go through that exhilaration and thought that you could be utd. I sulked and fussed for a few days then got af and started on the cycle again!

this month i am only temping (just cause i like to) and no testing...no opks and not hpts

I have however employed the tactic of using preseed which am finding if it isnt any more productive for fertility it sure does make the bding when you aint really in the mood more enjoyable.

[kel262]

I totally understand, it is very exhausting and VERY frustrating but I think the end goal will be worth all the trouble (it better be!!!!!:laughing:).
Veruca Salt, dont think you are dissapointing anyone, I had the same feelings, I WAS going to be the first one to produce a grandchild, then after me trying for 3 yrs my lil'sis fell pregnant, and it went out the window. I was dissapointed for me, but really happy for her. I know its hard not to think your letting people down, but try not to.
After our IUI's didnt work, we had about 5months of "rest" before we started IVF. We didnt not try naturally, but we did relax the rules alittle more, no temping, now worrying about drinking etc, I found this really great just to have a bit of a break before going in for the "big guns".:ecomcity:
Anyhow, Good luck when you start your IVF!!!:flowerz:

[HelenHasTwins]

I have so much respect for the dedication and determination of those that have been doing this for years. Would love to find where their secret stash of hope and optimism is hidden.








I can only speak for myself, but as for my secret stash of hope and optimism, its a secret:yes: no seriously I don't know where it comes from.....I think because we have been ttc for so long....we start to laugh at stuff, you get so sick of crying that you have too.....

I try very hard when we are not doing a IVF cycle or some sort of treatment ( having my 4th Lap in a couple of weeks for endo) to not think about it AT ALL.....we go on holidays had sex for the sake of having sex and not making a baby:o and I let myself have a wine or two....

I have been going to the gym everyday since the beginning of the year to try to lose some weight before my next cycle....and not only have I lost 8kg I really think this has been my Saviour. It has given me something else to focus on and I have so much energy:smiliedance:

So yep, there is no secret, just what you make of your own situation I guess....I find the more I mope around the worse it is.....but that is me.....


Wishing you ladies all the best and good luck

Helen xx

[kittykatz]

I'm a bit like Helen. After nearly 2 years i am just starting now to get used to the :bfn: and not let myself get quite so upset about it. I know i will do whatever it takes, and i also know i might still have quite a way to go still.

Now that i have accepted that, it makes it a bit easier to think long-term instead of just in 4 week cycles.

I don' think the hurt of AF or :bfn: eases though, i think you just learn to find that inner strength to keep "soldiering on".

[Baldie's Mum]

not only have I lost 8kg I really think this has been my Saviour. It has given me something else to focus on and I have so much energy


:smiliedance: for Helen!!!! 8kg is HEAPS!!!! :goodvibes: coming to you for being so determined!!!! :sunshine: Your :bfp: is just around the corner!!!!!

WOOOOOHOOOOOO!

[singa06]

Hi everyone,

I feel like this failed TTC journey is all my fault, maybe I started Clomid too early and have stuffed up my hormones, maybe I started obsessing too early.
Maybe I could have fallen pregnant right after my July M/C if I had of continued doing what I was doing, rather then freaking out and seeing a gyno.
I know my parents, in-laws, siblings, family are all waiting for the day...it feels like so much pressure sometimes. (Even though no one asks questions anymore).
I am 10 dpo and going MAD...:hair:Analysing every symptom. I just keep on telling myself that I am not pregnant and I can't fall pregnant naturally, I have something wrong so dont expect any + results this month!
I am just hoping that the IUI in April will work...and at the same time I am hoping to fall pregnant before then, because I am so scared of doing IUI...I know it is no where near as invasive as IVF, but just the thought of doing something like that scares the hell out of me!

[TrulyBlessed]

I just wanted to pop on here and give you guys a great big :kiss: & :hugs: .

I went through 16months of ttc & 2m/cs before concieving my ds. I had given up hope and was about to stop actively ttc when I got my af the next time. Af didn't show up.

This time round after not preventing for 6.5 months before my ppaf returned and then 13months of ttc with a cycle (19.5 months all up) & a few more m/cs we had decided to stop trying as we had just signed a contract on a new home and low & behold my af didn't turn up.

So I would just like to share that sometimes it really does happen when you least expect it.

Keep your chins up and as hard as it is try to get away from the whole ttc chore and just make love with your partner. :hugs: & :kiss:

[KatiesMum]

Wow Amy - I didnt realise your journey was so tough......Huge :hugs: hun.

I too have definitely been there (and back again!!!)

The journey, the heartache and emotional lows are one of lifes toughest roads ..... but are so worthwhile.

First time around it took 4 VERY long years of ttc heartbreak before my amazing natural miracle bubby (just before I was due to start IVF).

This time around we have been trying for over 12 months .... and now have some additional complications with me before we can start IVF for a much hoped for 2nd miracle.

I have a huge amount of respect and hope for those amazing women who are still trying - especially trying for a 1st which is always so much more difficult. HelenW, Kittykatz and many others are such amazing people who have been through so much ..... I just hope that all of you get that much hoped for bubs in the very near future.

Dont give up .......

:hugs: :hugs: :hugs: :hugs:

[TrulyBlessed]

Wow Amy - I didnt realise your journey was so tough......Huge :hugs: hun.



Julie

I don't normally promote it too much unless I know someone needs a light at the end of the tunnel story.

Just that unfortunately some of us do have a hard time but things happen when they are meant to as a wise friend once told me, the right baby for the right family at the right time. :kiss:

[kittykatz]

Thank you for your story mummadj. Goodness knows a lot of us are in need of a bit of inspiration! :hugs: