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Kachow
04-02-2008, 12:46
Hi my name is Stacey,

I never thought I would find myself in this section of the forum but sadly I am here.

On Thursday 3/01/08 at 12.10am we were all excited about hearing our baby's heartbeat at the doctors appointment we were having before our ultrasound the same afternoon. My DH took a extra long lunch to attend both appointments. The docs appointment went perfect. The doc not only heard the heartbeat but he also felt movement. He was happy everything was going well.

Our ultrasound app was at 1.45pm. We came home had some lunch then raced each other to the ultrasound so excited to see our baby and find out the sex of our baby.

10 mins in the U/S, a strange look come over the lady's face. We knew something wasn't right. " one sec, I just need to get the doctor" she said then she left the room for approx 10 mins. A doctor and her returned. the doctor looked at me and said quite bluntly, " Sorry but your baby doesn't have a heartbeat.... Its DEAD!" I looked at my DH, it couldn't be right. 1 hr before we had heard and felt movement. i asked him to check again.... but nothing.

We were given 10 mins in the room to " come to terms " with it, then told to go back to our doctors to see what to to next.

Back to the docs we went, in disbelief. Our GP was fantastic but he still couldn't believe that within the hr we were there to the U/S, our baby had died.

He advised us to go to our local hospital emergency dept, which happens to be the biggest womens hospital in SE QLD. There we waited for 5 hrs in the waiting room before being told we had to wait another 4 hrs before we wold be able to see a doc. With that we left the public hospital and went to the Wesley Private hospital with saw me straight away and were so nice and understanding. We had private health to start with but with our heads swimming we it didn't click to go there in the first place !

The next day we went and saw our gyno who saw us through our IVF and he was also shocked. I had no symptoms of miscarriage. No bleeding, no pain... nothing.

That afternoon i was booked into theater for a D&C. I was told that it was the best way for the " removal" as i didn't labor well and it was risky for him to make me deliver.

3pm came and I remember the oxygen mask being put on my face then I drifted off to sleep. When I woke my baby was gone. I have never felt so empty and so sad.

3 days later I was released from hospital.
At home its so hard to pack away the bassinet, and change table we had only bought the weekend before this happened.

We still dont know if it was a boy or girl as the doc couldn't tell, but he assures us that we will find out when the " tissue" results come back in 4 weeks time.

Well this is my story so far........

Stacey

Kachow
04-02-2008, 12:48
I have just received the call.....:gloomy:

There were no abnormal chromosomes detected and it appears to have been a healthy baby. We have no answers as to why the heart stopped.

So now I would like to announce.........

Lillie Faith

:angel: Born to the angels on 04/01/08:angel:

Mummy and Daddy miss you very much

RIP our sweet angel.

V8
04-02-2008, 12:51
Oh my goodness, i am so sad for you, what a horrible way to find out after all was well at the docs to hear that news at the ultrasound. I'm so sorry for your loss. :hugs: May your angel :angel: RIP.

javalava
04-02-2008, 12:57
I am also extremely sad for you and your husband. The feelings of why and what if must be extremely hard to deal with. Im guessing you were around 5 months?

Thats strange to happen at that time. Is there any way the doctor can find out more for you or will it be forever left as a mystery?

Are you having a little service?

cmd'smum
04-02-2008, 12:57
:no::(:( so so so sorry for your loss :hugs:

RIP Lillie Faith :angel:

Kachow
04-02-2008, 13:00
I am also extremely sad for you and your husband. The feelings of why and what if must be extremely hard to deal with. Im guessing you were around 5 months?

Thats strange to happen at that time. Is there any way the doctor can find out more for you or will it be forever left as a mystery?

Are you having a little service?

Yes I was 18 weeks. Theres nothing more the doc can do. We just have to accept that she was too perfect for this life. I would love to have a little service for her, Im looking in to it now.

Thanks for your support

bAaM
04-02-2008, 13:04
i'm so sorry for your loss, i pry god will give you the strength to move on.
your little darling is now playing with angels and wtching over you all.
:hugs:

Freya
04-02-2008, 13:04
Everytime I read stories like yours my eyes fill up in tears... you are so strong I would not cope.

:hugs::hugs::hugs:

Rest In Peace little angel.

Jinglebells
04-02-2008, 13:08
:hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs:

what a lovely name you've given your little angel, definatly too perfect for this world

if your interested, i've started up a chat thread in the getting help and support section (the one above this one), feel free to pop in and vent cry what ever you want

:hugs:

Mum&bubs
04-02-2008, 13:08
Oh I'm terribly sorry for the loss of your baby girl :hugs::hugs:

Lil X-men
04-02-2008, 13:13
OMG :hugs: How soo sad for you and your DH your story had me in tears.:(
RIP little Lillie Faith :angel:

Coffee
04-02-2008, 14:18
I'm so sorry Stacey to hear that.

I wish you and your husband all the strength you need, to get through this time.

Take care and look after yourselves.

I'm here if you need to talk :hugs:

RIP Lillie Faith :angel:

TyBean
04-02-2008, 14:27
I am in tears :( I am so sorry.

I know no words can make you feel any better, but I just want to let you know you and your family are in my thoughts and I am so sorry for your loss.

RIP Lillie Faith. May you run among the clouds and be free.

If you ever need to chat I am always here! :hugs::hugs:

2sweetgirls
04-02-2008, 14:50
:hugs:I am so so Sorry for your loss, how absoloutly awful for you and your husband, so much happiness and sadness in one day.

I wish you all the strength to get through this.

:hugs:From all Of Us

mum2shelby
05-02-2008, 11:06
I am so aorry to hear about your angel. My thoughts are with you and your family at this time:hugs:

Butterflies&Hurricanes
05-02-2008, 11:15
:hugs: Stacey!! What a beautiful name you picked for your darling angel.
It must be so hard for you and your DH. Remember you will always be one of the June girls. :hugs::hugs:

bubbleyblossom
05-02-2008, 11:17
RIP Lillie Faith

Kattus
05-02-2008, 11:27
:hugs::hugs:

I hope you & your husband and doing as well as you can be in a time like this. Your story brought tears to my eyes.

All the best, and please take care :hugs:

:angel: rest peacefully lillie faith

toni796
05-02-2008, 14:07
I cannot begin to imagine how you must be feeling at this time. Sorry for your loss and I know your little Lillie is watching over your family.

RIP Lillie Faith.

taliistheword
05-02-2008, 14:30
oh stacey,
i here is u need a ear, i was one of the first u told , poor little bub, my prayes are with u and wyan.

mum2littleman
05-02-2008, 14:49
so so sorry for your loss RIP little angel:angel:

grass is always greener
05-02-2008, 15:11
Rest in peace precious angel.

elwoodgal
05-02-2008, 15:14
So, so, so, sad for you Stacey
Lillie Faith is a beautiful name. In your ceremony maybe you could write a letter to you DD ?
I may have already mentioned it but I also think planting a tree is a lovely memorial to your DD. Hopefully it will always be with you to remind you of her.
elwoodgal :hugs:

Kachow
05-02-2008, 15:22
So, so, so, sad for you Stacey
Lillie Faith is a beautiful name. In your ceremony maybe you could write a letter to you DD ?
I may have already mentioned it but I also think planting a tree is a lovely memorial to your DD. Hopefully it will always be with you to remind you of her.
elwoodgal :hugs:
I am going to write her a letter and attach it to a balloon that we will be releasing at the service.

:)

elwoodgal
05-02-2008, 15:25
That sound absolutely beautiful. I have been to an AIDS memorial & a similar idea happened & it was truly moving.
elwoodgal

Ruby Slippers
05-02-2008, 15:34
I'm sorry for your loss :hugs:

Queen
06-02-2008, 11:02
:hugs:I am so sorry for your loss:hugs:

:angel:RIP Lillie Faith

reAllytee
06-02-2008, 12:09
My heart goes out to you & your hubby :hugs::hugs:

RIP Little Angel :angel:

StormAngel
07-02-2008, 13:02
Sending you all my love & hugs!