Hockeytribe
25-11-2007, 13:09
Hi all,
I suffered quite badly with post natal depression after my first baby, i was 19 and had no family of friends living close by and had no support from my partner. It was a lousy situation and i was miserable. I had some counselling and was on anti deps for 8 months.
During my pregnancy with my second baby, things were very stressful. My partner wasnt being supportive, as baby was a suprise! He was in a lot of trouble with the law and i didnt know where he was most of the time.
He came good in the end and was there to see our beautiful son come into the world on July 31st.
I think i was suffering before i had bub from the stress but i just thought it was hormones and id settle down. Things were still hard at home with dp spending a month in jail and i was having trouble coping with 2 kids on my own. When he got home and started helping more, i felt like i was falling apart. Even though things were better between us and i should of been happy i just felt down and tense all the time. I was always snapping and loosing my patience, id cry for no reason and feel generally low and sad.
The other day, we were heading out for the day, running late and i was stressed out tryna get everything organised. I was tired and on edge and i just snapped. I yelled and threw things around the house, then dropped to the floor in tears. Dp rang doc straight away and booked me an appt.
We went in that arvo and we both told doc how i have been feeling/acting. He wasnt supsried after all the **** we had been through. He put me on anti deps and told me to find a support newtwork.
Its been almost a week and im already feeling a bit better. Dp has noticed ive been calmer and more patient. He has been so supportive and good putting up with my mood swings.
I feel usless though. I know its normal and nothing to be ashamed of but i think coz i tried so hard to show everyone i was coping well with the kids and everything else i was going through with dp in jail etc but inside i was falling apart and had noone to talk too. My familt havent been supportive at all and i still feel like i have to keep up the act that its all good and that i cant ask for help coz it makes me feel like a failure.
I know imbeing stupid but i cant help it, i dont have much opportunity to let it all out.
Sorry for the long post!
I suffered quite badly with post natal depression after my first baby, i was 19 and had no family of friends living close by and had no support from my partner. It was a lousy situation and i was miserable. I had some counselling and was on anti deps for 8 months.
During my pregnancy with my second baby, things were very stressful. My partner wasnt being supportive, as baby was a suprise! He was in a lot of trouble with the law and i didnt know where he was most of the time.
He came good in the end and was there to see our beautiful son come into the world on July 31st.
I think i was suffering before i had bub from the stress but i just thought it was hormones and id settle down. Things were still hard at home with dp spending a month in jail and i was having trouble coping with 2 kids on my own. When he got home and started helping more, i felt like i was falling apart. Even though things were better between us and i should of been happy i just felt down and tense all the time. I was always snapping and loosing my patience, id cry for no reason and feel generally low and sad.
The other day, we were heading out for the day, running late and i was stressed out tryna get everything organised. I was tired and on edge and i just snapped. I yelled and threw things around the house, then dropped to the floor in tears. Dp rang doc straight away and booked me an appt.
We went in that arvo and we both told doc how i have been feeling/acting. He wasnt supsried after all the **** we had been through. He put me on anti deps and told me to find a support newtwork.
Its been almost a week and im already feeling a bit better. Dp has noticed ive been calmer and more patient. He has been so supportive and good putting up with my mood swings.
I feel usless though. I know its normal and nothing to be ashamed of but i think coz i tried so hard to show everyone i was coping well with the kids and everything else i was going through with dp in jail etc but inside i was falling apart and had noone to talk too. My familt havent been supportive at all and i still feel like i have to keep up the act that its all good and that i cant ask for help coz it makes me feel like a failure.
I know imbeing stupid but i cant help it, i dont have much opportunity to let it all out.
Sorry for the long post!