Scary Story

[kittykatz]

Hi girls, if you are brave enough, read the thread "Grim Reaper" in the religion & spirituality thread.

I didn't tell anyone in the TTC thread because i didn't want you to think i was crazy. But now you all know i am so i'm not so concerned!!!

[SpecialMumma]

:hugs: Your not crazy hunnie. I can tell you that now!

A week or so ago, at about 1 in the morning, DH and I had a HUGE fight, and I stormed off up the road going off my nut. Anyway, long story short, DH was laying in bed really upset playing with his phone and taking pics in the dark, and he took a picture and when he looked my dad is standing in the picture. He was smiling. DH rang mum in tears at like 2am and mum flew out, and mum burst into tears cos she could see dad standing at the end of the bed in the picture aswell. I couldnt. I would love to know if its a sign. I know dad is always watching over us but never has anything like that happened. This is the first time Ive even talked about it. DH has tried to show me the pics heaps but I freak out.

I just want to give you hugs hunnie, and tell your DH he ISNT alone in seeing those things.

[kittykatz]

EEEk, i've got goosebumps! But i do believe these things are meant to be a positive sign, that we really are being looked over.

I had a friend who was diagnosed with Hodgekins Lymphoma at 21. (the same thing Delta Goodrem had). She had a very hard time, but finally went into remission and got engaged. I lost contact for a while because she moved away. One night i had a dream where i was in a church in the front row crying, and Vanessa came up and touched me very gently on the shoulder and she was smiling. I woke up and felt almost like i was floating i was so happy and relaxed and peaceful. The next day another friend rang and said "are you sitting down, Vanessa has passed away". She apparently went downhill very quick and died the night before. I still remember it to this day and have never felt sad about it cause i can still feel that joy i felt.

[Nomsie]

Oh Wow, Kittykatz, that is pretty full-on!

Do you maybe feel like now there was some reason or purpose for the m/c? (You don't have to answer that, I know it is quite a hard question)

I would be so afraid of seeing something like that, or if my DP said he saw something like that... And it's the same with Amy's story- I would be absolutely freaking out!

But you just never know what forces you have got for you, working in your corner, do you?

So, in the immortal words of Dr Phil, I am intrigued to know "How does that make you feel?"

(Also, don't feel pressured to answer that, I am just very curious)

[Nomsie]

I have dreams that come true all the time, and De Javu a fair bit.

In Dec last year (after I hadn't talked to my 4 besties for 6 months over a silly bust-up) I had a dream we were all standing at our lockers at school crying, and I was saying to one of them "If I had of known I would have been here!" and I just knew that it was good AND bad news... the next day one of my friends rang and said another was preggers...

...we later found out she had placenta preavia... she had a c section, nearly died, and bubs nearly died too, it was so scary. My dream made complete sense that day.

Also, the day bubs was born, I knew it was a boy, like I knew, and I also knew what he was going to be called, because that name had been stuck in my head for a week...

[kittykatz]

Hi Nomsie. No, i don't mind answering personal questions. I'm used to hearing other peoples very personal stories, so i figure I can at least be open and honest myself!

I'm not feeling too bad about the miscarriage at all. My first one was aweful, but this one although it was really sad, because i just "knew" i was pregnant and it was such a let down, i hardly even think about it.

And, that may be because of the 'vision'. I think it is comforting in a way, and yes, at least makes me think there was a reason behind it. Of course now i wonder what the reason is, and why 2 miscarriages, both nearly exactly a year apart. I'm sure one day all the pieces of the puzzle will come together.

The only bad thing i guess is i feel it may take a while to get pregnant. I mean, if there was a reason i M/C, i'm hardly going to get BFP straight away again, because what would be the purpose in that? does that make sense?

[Nomsie]

That makes perfect sense to me.

Without getting into nitty-gritty details here, I too have "lost" a baby, but mine was actually a termination that I feel as though I was forced into when I was in a very delicate state of mind (shock, mostly) and then felt too weak to back out of.

it is for this reason that I feel as though I have been unable to conceive again, but I just feel as though my body will when the time is right. At least I hope it will! It was about 2 years ago! :)

[kittykatz]

Nomsie, about a year ago became friends with a girl who confessed to me had had 2 terminations. She suffered very badly from depression and anxiety, and was on the pill but still fell pregnant. I would probably have been very dangerous for her to be pregnant (for herself and the baby). Last year, just after i miscarried she fell pregnant again. Again she terminated. It was a bit hard for me at the time, but her partner had left her, she was still dealing with a severe anxiety disorder and was on the pill.

She has met a lovely parnter and they have been together 6 months. Well she found out she was pregnant the day i miscarried. I found it upsetting but later when i thought about it, thought:-

1. she was told after 3 terminations she was basically kissing a pregnancy goodbye, but she still fell pregnant, and here i am still trying. and then later

2. That baby (soul) must have really really been meant for her because look at how hard its tried!!

She said to me one day when i was upset about trying and trying and trying - "tara, you and colin are old souls, you're not meant to have new soul like Paris Hilton or something, you have a very special child up there for you and only they will know when the time is right".