how long does this last..

[babyniamh]

hi its me again..
i know that the last thread was me but i dont know where else to turn to..
i cant handle much more of this..
was ment to go out tonight.. went to get something to wear and had a complete breakdown.. had to practially run out of shop cryin..
just the thought of meetin people i know an everyone talkin at the same time to me, i just lost it...
truth is i dont wanna see anyone.. and i dont want to leave my baby..i can leave her the odd time but as stupid as it sounds i'd be afraid she'd just want a cuddle when i'm not there... i just wanna climb into a hole and never come out again.. i cant even answer the phone to people..
going to doc on tues.. we'll see then..
i just cant stop cryin..

[melfunction]

Your story sounds very similar to my own.

My eldest son is now 2 and I wasn't diagnosed with PND until he was 1 - my own fault. I refused to admit there was something wrong :rolleyes:

I also didn't want him anywhere near me after I gave birth to him. I handed him over as quick as I could to anyone within an arms length.
I hated interacting with other people - still do. Hate leaving the house, don't answer phone. I'm really very anti-social and retreat into my shell within seconds of being forced out of my comfort zone.

My youngest son is 4 months old and although I am completely the opposite with him, I now have tremendous guilt for not feeling this way with my eldest.

It is a long and difficult road. There is no magic wand to take it all away in a flash. It is something that takes time, tears and tantrums.

Maybe see another doctor - one who'll listen.

Take it easy on yourself :hugs:

[Shanaynay]

:hugs: Try to take it easy, you don't HAVE to go anywhere:hugs:
Be completely honest with the doctor on Tuesday and hopefully you'll get some help and support:hugs:

[suzannec]

i know exactly how your feeling. I went to the dr's last week and she has refered me to a psychologist.
I didnt know, but if you get your dr to do up a Mental Health Plan, then they can charge medicare rates at the psychologists. That is great new as up until now you didnt get anything back.
So chat to your dr about that, it helps heaps.

[mama kare]

hi, i was referred to a psychiatrist in my area by my GP at the beginning of the year. i highly recommend them now, after seeing how far i have come since i started seeing him regularly!

he acts as my councillor, a therapist, gives me advice, has me working on my self esteem & the mental image i have of myself as a person and a mother.. and he has found the one anti-depressant that really works for me.

i used to dread appointments with councillors at the beginning of my illness, but i look forward to my appointments with the psychiatrist because i know that he doesnt judge me, he acts as a sort of mentor and helps me understand why certain things have taken place in my life.

i started off paying $115 after each appointment, though i now just pay $15 and medicare pays the rest!

no health care plan needed and even though i am still a pnd sufferer, i feel so much better than i did at the beginning of the year.

my psychiatrist worked together with the catt team (special group of people who determine if you need hospitalization in the mental health ward at the hospital) and i had around the clock councilling, one phonecall from each every day, to ensure i was feeling 'okay'.. i cant explain how grateful i am for this now...

these people saved my life!

i can understand the agoraphobia/ public phobia thing you are experiencing right now - but my best advice is just to talk about everything with your therapist - everything!! get it all off your chest and trust in them (as hard as that can be at first!)

somedays i still have trouble getting out of bed, but i owe my sanity to the guys mentioned above!

hang in there!!