Gypsygirl
13-09-2007, 15:33
Hi, I'm new to this and am wanting to speak with others in similar or going thru the same as me.
I don't know where to start!!
Due to my partner having a vastecomy over 10 years ago, for us to have a bundle of joy, we need to use IVF & ICSI, yep no problems.
Make the 21 day appointment my partner comes to the appointment with me.
Laying back with my legs in the stirups (hmmm) having an ultrasound and the doctor askes me three questions, and my answers to all three are yes. I am then told I have polycystic ovaries. When I look at the screen it looks like a garlic head has been cut in half. The seriousness in the doctors voice, has me worried. We then go to the IVF clinic and it is all explained to me. Yep not one single thing has stayed inside my head.
I suppose I went into this thinking everything was ok, I'd go down to the city for six weeks and hopefully come home PG, well that was all shattered and out the window very quickly.
My treatment was explained to us, I'm glad my other half was there as he could taken in alot of what we were being told, as I heard but didn't take it in.
My parnter had to go back to work, so for the next five months I was in the city staying with my brother and sister in law (who was PG at the time), it was extremely hard as I needed my partner.
My treatment was started, and I was monitored very closely by the clinic, as the risk of ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome was extremely high. Well they took 32 eggs, 28 where mature and 8 were fertilised and then frozen. I could hardly walk just before the eggs were harvested. But now I know what I am going to look like when I do eventually get PG. After the harvesting was complete, the hperstimulation hit. You read all the information but it doesn't prepare you for what will happen physically, and that is what threw me. I was so ill from it all, that I nearly ended up in hospital. Between all the hormones and being ill, all I wanted to do is give up and go home, but I just kept thinking it will be all worth it in the end.
As I didn't have the embroys implanted after they were harvested, I then had to have HRT treatment to get my body to think that it was PG, and take the pill to get my hormones back to normal.
I went back to have the embryos implanted, 2 at a time had to be thawed, 6 were thawed in total, as they werent surving the thawing, I got implanted with two embryo's, but as my body was still ill and hadn't fully recovered from the hyperstimulation.
I did the two week blood test to find out if I was PG, and no, this was in Mid June '07' and I only stopped crying in August.
I'm sorry I seem to be all over the place.
During treatment my partner would ring me and we would just end up fighting on the phone, and that made things worse.
My sister in law was a god send as well as her parents.
I finally got home and my partner took me to the doc's and was told I had an agressive form of depression, the happy tablets helped me, but as for us as a couple alot has happened seperately in our lives and as a couple, and we are like strangers, he is like a closed book and me I need to talk about how I'm feeling. He just doesn't seem to understand what has and is happening to me.
The feelings I experienced with the first half of the treatment were shocking, I spose this is where I should have gone and spoken to a counsellor, I didnt realise or understand that the clinic has a support group. Now that I have learnt the hard way, I now know what I can expect.
I haven't told my folks or the rest of the families as I dont need to be continually asked are PG? and because they cant give me the support I need.
I don't know where to start!!
Due to my partner having a vastecomy over 10 years ago, for us to have a bundle of joy, we need to use IVF & ICSI, yep no problems.
Make the 21 day appointment my partner comes to the appointment with me.
Laying back with my legs in the stirups (hmmm) having an ultrasound and the doctor askes me three questions, and my answers to all three are yes. I am then told I have polycystic ovaries. When I look at the screen it looks like a garlic head has been cut in half. The seriousness in the doctors voice, has me worried. We then go to the IVF clinic and it is all explained to me. Yep not one single thing has stayed inside my head.
I suppose I went into this thinking everything was ok, I'd go down to the city for six weeks and hopefully come home PG, well that was all shattered and out the window very quickly.
My treatment was explained to us, I'm glad my other half was there as he could taken in alot of what we were being told, as I heard but didn't take it in.
My parnter had to go back to work, so for the next five months I was in the city staying with my brother and sister in law (who was PG at the time), it was extremely hard as I needed my partner.
My treatment was started, and I was monitored very closely by the clinic, as the risk of ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome was extremely high. Well they took 32 eggs, 28 where mature and 8 were fertilised and then frozen. I could hardly walk just before the eggs were harvested. But now I know what I am going to look like when I do eventually get PG. After the harvesting was complete, the hperstimulation hit. You read all the information but it doesn't prepare you for what will happen physically, and that is what threw me. I was so ill from it all, that I nearly ended up in hospital. Between all the hormones and being ill, all I wanted to do is give up and go home, but I just kept thinking it will be all worth it in the end.
As I didn't have the embroys implanted after they were harvested, I then had to have HRT treatment to get my body to think that it was PG, and take the pill to get my hormones back to normal.
I went back to have the embryos implanted, 2 at a time had to be thawed, 6 were thawed in total, as they werent surving the thawing, I got implanted with two embryo's, but as my body was still ill and hadn't fully recovered from the hyperstimulation.
I did the two week blood test to find out if I was PG, and no, this was in Mid June '07' and I only stopped crying in August.
I'm sorry I seem to be all over the place.
During treatment my partner would ring me and we would just end up fighting on the phone, and that made things worse.
My sister in law was a god send as well as her parents.
I finally got home and my partner took me to the doc's and was told I had an agressive form of depression, the happy tablets helped me, but as for us as a couple alot has happened seperately in our lives and as a couple, and we are like strangers, he is like a closed book and me I need to talk about how I'm feeling. He just doesn't seem to understand what has and is happening to me.
The feelings I experienced with the first half of the treatment were shocking, I spose this is where I should have gone and spoken to a counsellor, I didnt realise or understand that the clinic has a support group. Now that I have learnt the hard way, I now know what I can expect.
I haven't told my folks or the rest of the families as I dont need to be continually asked are PG? and because they cant give me the support I need.