Finally going to let it out :(

[Freya]

I never talk about this but lately it's been all I can think about.. We lost 2 little angels before I fell pregnant with kaid. There is very few people we have told, I hate telling people because they always try to say things like oh your baby will be waiting in heaven for you ect.. But it makes me feel worse... But lately it has been on my mind more then normal to a point where I keep having dreams about these 2 little girls, I hate that I will never be able to see them grow up and live a proper life. I know they are in heaven but I want them with me. Don't feel as though you have to post a reply I just wanted to say it all because dp and i never talk about them...:gloomy:

[Mamalicious]

im so sorry sweetie, i can only imagine how hard it must be.

i hope that by talking about it you get some closure, you're so strong hun.

[HunterzMummy]

:hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs:

I have nothing profound to say.. I just wanted you to know that i am thinking of you through this difficult time... Have you maybe thought of seeing someone?? I only say this because you said you never speak about it..It may help to get it out..

How far along were you (only answer that if you feel comfortable, dont feel you have to)

[Freya]

6 weeks and 10 weeks

[Mamalicious]

im talking to you now, but just thought you should have some hugs :hugs: :hugs:

[HunterzMummy]

i cant even imagine how hard that must have been for you hun :hugs:


(i dont mean to take away from how your feeling at all) but as awful as it is...it has made you the women you are today.. A mature wonderful mother :) And now you have the most precious gift of all...your gorgeous lil man..But i really think u should talk to your GP and get some grief counsel and maybe in later sessions DP could go with you.

[punkbaby]

Hugs for you hun its never easy and you will never forget your precious little angels either

[hayleysmummy]

Hun big big big :hugs: to you I know what you mean when people say that bub/bubs will be in heaven waiting for you all you can think is but why arent they here with me now It really does hit home when you hold your newborn in your arms that swhen all the emotions come running back I know my situation is a bit different with the abortion (against my will) but I cry about that bub sometimes to think if it was boy/girl what he she looked like he/she would be nearlly 4 now and I still think about it every day I dont even think it gets easier over time when you have a live bub it brings back thoughts and emotions you never thought you had :hugs: to you I'm always here if you need to chat babe

[Blessed Mum]

I am so sorry. Just talk/post as you need. :hugs:

[Freya]

Thanks for the support..

I feel like I miscarried my first baby because I was soo scared and as much as I was against abortion I gave it a thought so I felt as though I made it happen because I was soo scared and because I thought about aborting...

Dp and I have never really talked about them he cried while he drove us home both times but that was all... I think we just don't know what to say to eachother about it.. And sometimes I feel selfish because I am thinking about these babies and not appreciating the fact that I have my beautiful son with me now..

[~mia&ryan~]

:hugs: Here hun have loads of these:hugs: :hugs: You are so strong and so brave.. I hope that by talking about it, that you can get some sense of peace in the situation.... I am so sorry..:hugs: