It can't be normal to feel like this but I feel like it is.....

[pavlova]

I feel like I wouldn't miss anything if I were to die right now.
I wouldn't miss my kids, because I'd be dead. I wouldn't care about anything if I were dead.
Everything just seems too hard and I don't want to play this game called life anymore :rain:
Just thinking about having to face the next day, week, year, makes me feel sick. I don't want to have to face anything.
I just want to disappear :(

[Chickadee]

I have felt very much like you do. It's not normal, but it is very common, unfortunately.

What pulled me out of it was the thought of not seeing my daughter grow up. But every one is different. :hugs:

Please please talk to someone. Lifeline is always available (edit - oops, you're overseas and Lifeline is Australian... but I'm sure that there will be some emergency phone help :hugs:)

[Pippi Longstocking]

I have felt like you have before too. I know it is so hard to believe right now, but you can be happy. You can wake up feeling excited and optimistic and worthy.
Your babies would miss you. You are their mummy and they need you. Use that to get you through until the negative thoughts pass. And they will pass. Really, they will.
Love and strength to you. :hugs:

[sabomum]

Pavlova, first of all:hugs: to you!


I hope you dont mind but when i read your post i had to go back and see other posts you had written just to get a bit of background on were you are coming from. Darling girl, of course you feel the way you do, by the sounds of it you have just come through such a horrible ordeal for the past few years! My heart really goes out to you. Like the other girls have said you really should go and see someone because feelings like this should not be just shrugged off. You mentioned that you wouldnt miss your kids, but they will miss you! They will miss you so much you dont understand. You are their world and they need you. But you also need some help, really. Im not saying there is anything wrong with you but please for the sake of your kids and all your familiy see your GP at least.

I am thinking about you and praying for you and will be watching this post to make sure you are alright.

[Lastcenturymum]

I don't know your story either, but hang in there. I recall going thru stages of not wanting to face the day, wanting to just pack a bag and walk away but it was more the thought of what it would do to my kids emotinally that stopped me.

I had a day yesterday where I just didn't want to keep trying to live here. I came back from the UK after a week of being an asset and useful to 100's of people to a town I know 3 people and no one knows who knows or appreciates my skills. I just wanted to get on a plane and go home and not come back.

Hang in there, try and find one or two things to be thankful for (yesterday it was the sun finally shone and helped) and yes, seek some help :hugs:

[sabomum]

Pavlova, how are you going? Hope you are feeling better. Let us know how things are...please! Quite concerened!!!!

[V8]

Oh hun, i have read your previous threads and understand you are going through a terrible time, but you have to give yourself some more credit, you are amazing to even get out of your relationship and not put up with ****, you do deserve better and you need to think better of yourself... I wish there was more i could say and do to help you. :hugs:

[canberramomma]

All I can say is please go and talk to your GP. They will refer you if you need it and if you are broke, they can arrange bulk billing. I have been there and have attempted stupid things and tried to self medicate. I even took out my frustrations on my beautiful children, which compounded how absolutely awful I felt. Hang in there and get some help quickly!!

[sunnyflower]

pavlova i hope you are having a better day today:hugs:

[RoarsomeMum]

:hugs: :hugs: :hugs: :hugs: I hope today is better for you. Depression is cruel..